becky.

Korean Wave !!!

2012-01-22T10:38:00.000+08:00

I think Korean Wave virus invaded my life.

Since last semester break, I am watching 런 닝 멘 (Reonni men) , aka Running man.
and since then i am kinda crazy about Korean stuff.

Running man is a variety show. Kinda lazy to explain you all just go and google it up. ;)

The symptom of the "infection" start off with laughing like crazy people. Especially when I watching the show with plugged in headphones, which people normally don't hear any sounds from the show but only me laughing.

Second, I will start searching about the background music. Which eventually brought me to M.I.B ( Most Incredible Busters). A Korean Hip Hop group that I just noticed recently. Famous with this song :

Girls.Drinks.Money by M.I.B. (Is a background music in one Running Man episode). For this long I thought T.O.P from BigBang is kinda best in rapping but somehow this Hip-Hop group turns my entire loyalty upside down. *Oops* Still <3 T.O.P but they are incredibly awesome. Then for those who watched Running Man, the rapper Gary turns out to be one of the Hip-Hop duo group - LeeSSang which bring me this :

About M.I.B again, which I am super attached to their songs now.
All the time in my mind, Korean songs = K-pop from girls groups and also boys groups.
But this group is thumbs up.
They have 4 members in total : 5Zic, KangNam, Cream and Sims.

This is a song from 5Zic -'Beautiful Day'. He is a good rapper too.

I know some of you sure say I am crazy.
Indeed, I am. I admit it.

So?!

Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends and also Happy Studious Chinese New Year to my course mates.

小叮当！让我回到过去吧~

2012-01-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

那天傻傻地买了几米的作品-[时光电影院]

因为电影院。

因为老大。

因为喜欢躲在里面的感觉。

因为喜欢爆米花。

因为有收集电影院戏票根的怪习惯。

因为回忆。

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（里面的一些句子）

‘他告诉我许多他看过的电影；我告诉他更多我看过的电影。’

‘我们在恐怖片中惊声尖叫。我们在战争片中奋勇杀敌。我们在科幻片中漫游星际。我们在爱情片中感伤落泪。’

‘我在别人的故事里，经历不同的人生，有时羡慕，有时叹息。’

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人说人生如戏。

静静的，我的电影也散场了。

有的时候，临睡前的脑子反复都是电影的情节和对白。
只是在怎么播映，那些情节是过去的故事。
常常假设不同的电影情节……
让自己开心一点。

或许，下次，

我能在电影中寻找答案。

只是，那不会是同一部电影了。

Au Revoir 2011.

2011-12-31T12:31:00.000+08:00

So, guess every shittest thing happened in your life gonna walk into graveyard very soon.
I mean.. 2012 is coming babe!
what happened in 2011 just let it be. I don't do resolutions since year 2010 because the resolution for 2009 doesn't happen

I had an incredible year of 2011. Let's see.
1. Start with neutral feelings, keep studying aim for "no re-sit" goal..-Checked. Passed Sem 2 like nobody business.

2. Went for a birthday trip to Australia with Chen Yee, ma best friend since 2003. - Checked. 2 weeks spent in Gold Coast, Brisbane and Sydney.. Love it.

3. Joined Cheerleading. - Checked. have a lot of fun and it feels great!

4. Went for a club. - Checked. Not bad la..overall.

5. Joined a run.- Checked. 10km around KL. which earned me this special gift : customized finisher tee with name and time.

6. Drove to south. - Checked. unintentionally happened but is a freaking good experiences that I shall never drive any long distance with my car again.

7. Fall in love and heartbroken (Partially). - Checked. Feel happy and sad. Laughter and cries did built me a very good memories. Thanks for showing up in my life.

8. Met a celebrity. - Checked. Met our very own Jess Lee at my hometown. She have an incredible voice.

9. Ohh! Changed a new hairstyle. Does this count? - Checked. permed my hair. Now gone wavy and curly.

2012 is coming..Like real soon. I do hope everyone that I know have a great year ahead. A good start. I believe next year gonna be very awesome as we will having 29 days in February.
As for me, I will be having a hectic upper half of 2012. Timetable shows 8-6pm almost everyday start 3rd Jan.(fuck la who wanna go class on 3rd day of 2012? even Primary and Secondary school kids also start on 4th. We are one day earlier! )

I surely miss all the days in 2011. Every single day I didn't feel wasted until lately.Oops.
All the laughs, tears, hates and jealousy should be gone by now.
Because we gotta welcome 2012 with a blank. Let's fun fill in the blanks and enjoy to the most of the every day in 2012. If we gonna face world end at 2012..So why we must die in regrets? IF it is happen, I gonna die in my smile, reflecting all the fun I have lived.

Thanks for those who clicking to this pity blog. Million thanks.

Yours truly, becky.

xoxo

Fa la la la la.

2011-12-23T17:40:00.000+08:00

Yep. I went to perm my hair.
and no hair washing in 2 days. can't imagine.

Taking this change as new beginning of my life. ☺
8 days left to 2012. I gonna left all the sadness and happy memories behind.
What's happened in 2011 are gonna stay there.
Although I'm pretty sure I will miss all the things that had completed my 21st year.

Suddenly realized that my Aussie trip post still stuck at Sydney. ohfck
I am a lazy blogger. But I will try to continue it before 2011 ends.

Gonna spend my Christmas weekends at home. Lying on my bed and do nothing. sigh. This is foreveralone Christmas.

Till then, Loves from me.
Merry Christmas again!

some random crap post.

2011-12-17T18:21:00.000+08:00

People just put your bet ya? There's a lot of saying that, a romance relationship can never win over friendship.
I am confused.

A lot.

From what I have been through, not just once, but twice. Well, the first hit was quite impressive and its really took me almost entire semester to get through. The second hit was okay since we were quite far apart from each other.

I shall never knew, when you see the one that you recognized as 'best friend', could just walk away from you and like it's never happened. I am not that kind of person who are willingly to accept the fact that you came into my life, make some tornadoes, and just 'poof'!

As my age is increasing..(uhm. yes!) I learnt that no one could really stay at your side like forever. In the end you will be lying in the coffin ALONE. not like there's another compartment that will fit another person unless u custom made it. wtf i m talking about. #lamejoke

in the other end, there are always a bunch of people who we call friends are there. Is that even true? I am not so sure. I have met thousands of people and few hundreds of acquaintance, hundreds of friend but actually, there will be only less than 5 of true friend.

Anyway, the year 2012 is coming. I don't actually give a shit about end of the world. just treasure whatever you have now. Love the people who are sincere and just walk away from who are don't, as I always say : Life is short, so don't give a damn on what is happened and looking forward for some future excitement.

Merry Christmas 2011 people!

thanks for reading this crap. ;)

budak.kids.xiăo hái.

2011-12-05T11:47:00.000+08:00

I adore kids. babies. I love them.
I can spend hours just to have a little fun time with them.(babymaniac)

I don't hv elder brother or sister who recently get married or having kids.
No way I could see my cousin's children that often unless important family occasion.

One old photo- My little cousin.

Another cousin.

See? How cute they are. I seriously can spent hours and hours in chasing them, playing with them.
I love their life. Everytime I see a baby, i will have a voice saying in my mind : I wish I was him/her. Life is less complicated for them, only diapers,poopoo,peepee,milk,food,toy,sleep,nap.

They don't even bother what is the time now.They don't really understand what's going on around them.
All they care is the love that adults gave to them.

I was visiting my friend few weeks back and first met this baby. Not my friend's.
His mum is babysitting a baby girl call Jessie. which this little young lady have a superstrong personality.
She knew you are a stranger, but..she didn't cry and yelled like some other kids do. Oh yea, she is 1 year old plus. She will look at you, or more appropriate , OBSERVE you. try to figure out who are you and what are you doing here in this house. First time I tried to held her and she start making faces. sigh.

2nd time of my visit, probably without my spec and my hair was in ponytail, she probably can't recognise me.hahaha! So when she get out from the crib, she just lying against me at the sofa. I felt so warm *cries* . Soooo cute!

Why this baby/kids post came up? I was browsing fb, saw one album from a woman I knew, titled about in memory of her daughter.
I felt instant tears rolling down through my cheek.
I never knew she lost her child few years back.
sigh. I could say no more. I feel sad. Deeply sad. although I never met the child. It's must be super hard for her to let go after weeks of pregnancy, brought her here to this world, joining as a part of the family. Sometimes life is a joke.

Hey there little girl, I am kinda late in knowing you but I know you are having a good time now at heaven as God's pretty little angel. You are adorable and I believe you are a good kid. My love will always be with you. <3

If there is a chance, I would like to have kids.

We are all in this together :)

2011-11-28T21:40:00.001+08:00

*All photos below are taken from Christina Chan's + Audrey's + Selena's albums. because i do not own a camera dring the trip.

Okay. So I went to Port Dickson and Malacca for a small weekend getaways with my cheer team members.
we have 5 cars on the road and supposingly, minus one car on the way back.
Here's the story.
GuanYan; one of the driver, will drive back to JB after the trip. (Supposingly)
So they will have problems coming back to KL with 18 ppl in 3 cars.
So I am driving (YES!) because my car can fit 3 ppl which will solve the problems that we have no enough cars.

my little kancil. ;)

Oh so, we have 5 cars to PD. 6 cars to malacca which another member, Cedric meet us from Seremban.
I am superextremelyproud of my car didn't have problems or what during the trip because Kancil ain't designed for long distance driving. Thank goodness I didn't fall asleep on the way back. ~~i m done driving long distance, if necessary i shall drive till malacca.~~

Ready for check- in @ Glory Beach Resort.

me @ the beach.#lousyposer

Me, Hui Inn and Hui Min.

DracoCheer All Girls. <3

So as Draco Cheer Team, we will always try to stunt whenever we can and everywhere.
even in the pool.

Customised Basket Toss.

Basket Toss with Joe's toe touch. Awesomeshit.

left: EngSeng, Seng Juong, Hui Inn, Hui Min and Lizhuang.

Joe's Pretty Girl stunt.(half) haha

me, ee von and hui min. :)

As I said, we will try to stunt everywhere. Now is @ the beach.

I like this shot. :)

me with superhawt Selena :)

:) me with Selena's hat.

We did had a great time at PD and then headed to Malacca the next day.
Due to heavy traffic, it took us almost 2 hours from PD to Malacca which is totally bullshit.
then we went to Jonker street for ~~lunch~~ dinnuch(dinner + lunch) at 4pm.

I did some irresponsible cum dangerous driving stunt which involved several rule breakings..hmmmph.

And finally headed home at 830pm something.
Drove with almost half closed eye lid and manage to drop my passangers back home safely. Thank god.

Conclusion: I shall never drive long distance again, unless is necessary or super important such as matter of live or death,and further distance i can go is Malacca. That's it. NO MORE.

and I went to Nike Run the next morning. 10km distance, consider nothing for those pros but for me, is such a big thing as I have only half energy left for ~~running~~ walking. But at least I finished the run, crossed the line and I feel proud and i got a limited edition gifts! Nike shoe pendrive! cute max.

Dear DracoCheerTeam2011, I am happy that I joined the team this year. never regret.
I am glad to have you all with me in my 3rd semester.
I am not sure whether I will join for the next IMU cup but memories that we built are way more beautiful. and I appreciated that. We did bond super well with all those outings and BBQ sessions, hopefully see somemore gathering. Till then, study hard and <3 you all.

宅女day 2 我觉得我很像人妻只是不犀利

2011-11-23T17:43:00.000+08:00

别误会啊，放假期间没偷偷变人妻。
因为钱包变得很瘦，所以没有办法跑出去，连汽油也不能打。

哇哩咧。
这是放假中的学生该有的生活么？
应该在外面疯癫疯癫的……
想打工却有点不舍得假期就这样忙碌掉，因为真正的忙碌明年已经在等着我去熬。

第二天宅在家了！昨天兴致勃勃的开始追看[成均馆绯闻]，第5集一直到刚才17集。
当然我有睡觉啦哈哈哈，只是不懂是不是古时代的韩语很难翻译啊？我有看字幕也不能明白。

早上起身送二小姐去搭LRT后回家Facebook就一直打开着。然后[成均馆绯闻] 也连续几个小时不间断。
News feed也是一直被我refresh refresh，
但是我还是很珍惜兼充分的消磨时间。哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

噢对，我看韩剧有个坏习惯：一到拖拉的地方我就fast forward……耐不住啊。

话说，我真的没办法想象那种被称为宅男宅女的人怎么在家度过啊？
还有，家庭主妇怎么可以在家煲剧？
怎么可以？！

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最近看了In Time.

Justin Timberlake 演的，故事构思很好，真正带出了我们每天都说的时间就是金钱，生命跟金钱脱离不了的关系。

宅女的日子还要忍多一天！（痛苦）

很多事你不祈求老天爷会赐给你

2011-11-22T12:41:00.000+08:00

我决定不说人生有很多事是徒劳无功的。
在我几乎每天泡在图书馆、念书念到三更半夜才回家外加
回到家凉也不冲，一直等到眼皮都快盖下来了才想用洗澡来提神外加
咖啡一天猛喝三杯（无意中）的日子外加
蓬头垢面的日子（I swear it's true!），都没怎么照镜子外加
眼袋挂到鼻翼的日子……

终于，考试都通过了！虽然CGPA还是很低，是个污点。
如果那时候的那一场小考好好考了或许会到达目标。

我撕开成绩的那瞬间，寻找的是congratulations这个字。我曾经fail过，所以我知道fail了的成绩单上写的是一堆废话让你去重考等等……就是没有congratulations这个字。
看到后我居然是想哭的感觉，我也不知道为什么。
只是知道再盯着成绩单久一点我就会流眼泪了。

感动。
再感动。

但是又不太能表露你开心的感觉因为怕影响到那些有点不幸运的同学。
那种放松而笑的心情我是直到晚餐后才有的，可能那种紧张感还在。

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我拿到成绩后第一个想到的人就是老大。

我说过，朋友对我来说是像每天都要吃东西一样重要。
最近，都没什么很close的朋友，我耐不住孤独。
所以老大就出现了。

我知道fb可以聊天，缩短距离跨过时间区之类的‘异常功能’，拉近人与人之间的距离。
但是重点我要的是真人朋友。
有时候隔着荧幕，我还是有点不习惯。我的大嘴巴是要用来说话的。
所以有时候我可以把同样的事，跟不同的人讲。变得到最后也没重点了。我也不知道怎么变成这样。囧

我以为21岁很多事都能够以21岁的智商来解决，但是不能。有时候你要假象自己还是10岁，把事情看得简单一些，心里就比较好过。

我以为21岁面对的事都不复杂，但是没有。每天每分每秒，都会有意想不到兼super复杂的烂摊子。

我以为21岁的我会很理智的，但是不是。有时候，我还是很冲动，被感觉牵着走却把理智抛在脑后。

我以为21岁的我们，都是一群热血的疯子，但是不是。真正的疯子只是几个，只是大家都没那么热血了。

还要不停的长大呢。 :)

人生本就有很多事是徒劳无功的

2011-11-16T16:50:00.000+08:00

座位前，座位后。男孩的衣服背上开始出现蓝色墨点。

[那些年·我们一起追的女孩]by刀大终于在马来西亚上映了。
我本来抱着很激动的心情要看这部电影……
可能是因为面子书到处都是相关的照片和电影中的经典名句~

搞得我还没看就对电影产生了情绪抗体。（刀大对不起！）

这本书是我接触刀大的第一本书，后来陆陆续续买了[爱九把刀系列]的书本。感谢有个朋友热情推介我要看他的书。

我是个守旧兼有点老土的人，我很享受两张手掌之间捧着的爱情故事，一页一页的跟着看柯腾傻气幼稚的追着沈佳宜。看了电影我觉得还好，还是比较喜欢小说。我觉得很羡慕刀大的人生，那么多的喜气、青春、友谊、涩涩的爱情、眼泪交织的年轻，那么的激动和热血。

我的那些年，有点搞笑。但是认识了几个很好的朋友，也算有了一些很好的美丽开头。
也多亏了刀大，这个没生气的blog才诞生。
我也带着班门弄斧的态度乱乱创作，到后来中文没什么念，也只到了中五程度，写着写着发现词汇也是有限公司。

柯腾和沈佳宜之间的情愫和友谊，在我看完小说的时候会感到莫名的遗憾。
有时候，真的会像故事里的情节，彼此会羡慕在另一个平行时空的‘我们’应该是在一起的。

刀大的小说有别于一般的小说。我的小书柜收藏的作者作品有Sophie Kinsella, Nicholas Sparks, J.K Rowling, 还有九把刀是唯一的华人作者。我很少看华语小说是因为有时候太过繁华的用词然我想象不到故事情节。刀大的用词直接，故事那样，就是那样。没别的。

在这里还是要推荐大家去看一下这个电影。
回味一下那些年，大家的青春。

十年后，我们大家都会说，那些年，我们都疯狂回忆青春。

21岁的我（我们），还年轻。
要achieve something，就要像刀大说的‘人生就是要不停的战斗’。
考试结束了就有莫名的空虚感。
是时候把书展买的一堆书都看了吧。
希望考试一定要通过！

迟到

2011-10-29T17:42:00.001+08:00

忘了上一次更新是什么时候了。
我知道上一篇依然停留在澳洲，是很久以前的事了。对不起啊啊啊啊

我的人生在后来发生了一些事。

平凡的人生变得有点涟漪和波浪
不小心得跌进坑洞
擦破了皮
有小小损伤

我是孩子气的狮子座
我一定要倾诉才能痊愈
也逼了朋友当听众
不好意思啊

所以我学会了有些事不需要投入任何希望
因为有时候只是一场美好的假象
那种难能可贵的柯达瞬间不知道几时再会遇上了

谢谢你让我体会到安全感
我不知道你是不是Mr.Right，不过还是谢谢你给我那么一次的机会
让我感受到原来这些小事都可以很幸福
我傻傻地投入希望但是还是可以跟你做朋友
也挺好的不是么？

身边的朋友们都嘛恋爱去了
真替她们开心
要幸福噢 ♥

还有几天就要大考了
不懂是不是暴风雨前的平静，
我还没有感受到压力爆炸的感觉

我需要动力。

25号的海边，等我，我就来。

☼、沙滩~

P/S：同学们都说我是不是参加Cheerleading后运动量变大，看起来瘦了。
（有点暗爽，不过自知之明，重量根本就是一样）

青春的尾巴4 - 倩怡的鞋子没了和我们眼睛都张很大

2011-07-08T18:18:00.000+08:00

5/6 是第二天了，我们起了个早，要回到Circular Quay，据旅游书说那里有Sunday Market。想给他逛一逛。

早上的Hyde Park，想说要寻找倩怡前一晚飞走的围巾。

嘻嘻。

我知道我这个照片很好笑，我们的表情也怪怪的。

本来依照前一天的路线，我们直接走到Circular Quay,没想到，前一晚接近掉队的鞋底，今早就……分离了。鞋子的主人被逼要用橡皮筋裹着前脚，然后我们想直冲Chinatown去买鞋了。哈哈，由于鞋子变得鳄鱼，主人的心情也开始受影响了。我们眼里想找的就是便宜和好穿的鞋！

路途经过这个。大城市的中间就有这个啊。

早上的街景。今天是星期天。

经过我们风尘仆仆脚程加速之后，我们终于来到了位于Quay Street 的Chinatown.

电车！

就在这里，鞋子的主人买了一双蓝色的娃娃鞋。就是照片里，黄色鞋子后面的那些蓝色。

商场外的乞丐狗。它们要筹医药费（不是开玩笑）但是主人也太不负责任了，这样把狗留在这里讨钱。

换了鞋子的倩怡，心情也换了。哈哈

我们去了Paddy's Market，像这里的茨场街。

来乱的。

Chinatown 里的一个街。

搞笑路名。不愧是华人地方，一定要‘发’而且也要‘多利’。

照字面，Factory Street应该要叫：工厂街。

前往Darling Harbour 的路途看到一个摩天轮。

*这篇未完成。待续，各位先看着。

青春的尾巴3 - 噢啦啦悉尼我们来了

2011-07-08T17:45:00.001+08:00

首先我要90度鞠躬，对不起。
这篇是迟到了，而且很久。

4/6

兴奋呀。

出发到悉尼-耗时1个小时半。

抵达悉尼后，我们就搭了Airport Train, 要到Central 车站，然后转火车到King's Cross Station. 它就好像这里的KLIA EXPRESS 一样的用途。火车来到我眼前的时候，吓死了。双层火车啊，还是头一次见。想当初小时候在新加坡看到双层巴士都已经高兴得要死。

火车内部。我们坐在下层。

到了Central站。

像不像电视电影里的纽约？我觉得还蛮像的。到了悉尼给我的感觉是：城市、繁忙而且入夜了以后会比较危险。

然后我们转达Eastern Suburb Link 的 Cityrail到King's Cross去。$3.20一趟。若不说，我也不知道King's Cross原来是当地著名的红灯区，好像这里的Chow Kit一样。但是相比之下看起来比较整齐。

在我们刚抵达悉尼的时候，发生了一件事。倩怡小姐的鞋子，有点不听话的选择在这个时候……

嗯。不需要我说明吧~哈哈哈

这个是我们在Bourke Street找到的‘家’，未来的2夜我们就要在这里睡。话说，这间Backpackers是很便宜（澳币），而且环境不错，没有很差。我这次旅行讲的是玩，所以厕所长得不怎么体面我还可以接受。天气冷，所以冲凉也随便随便。厕所没有很好，到头来也没影响我们很多。

过后我们也当了一下Auntie去附近的超市买晚餐：面包和罐头。没办法，来到这里就是省。在Backpackers有一间厨房，由于我们是第一次住backpackers,所以还不大习惯那么多人。厨房是公用的，你在外面买什么回来煮他们都不介意，只要你有清理干净就好。

我们的晚餐是杯面，所以很快的，煲了水就可以吃。其他人有牛肉饭、意大利面、韩式晚餐……噢，这间Backpackers有很多韩国人在这里居住，多数是跟我们差不多岁数的，大概是打工一族。所以哈韩的朋友不妨来这里看一看，韩国的oppa们都很不错看噢。(#^.^#)

厨房里。

我们的房间。C2

话说，房间在我们到达的时候已经有了两个人住进去了。所以一间房4个人，我们预定的是All Female dorm，不过却有一个男的跟我们一起住。好在他人很好，不然我赶快就离开。他们是意大利人，目前在墨尔本工作，趁有时间来这里玩。

左：Samanta，在墨尔本教意大利文，英文很不错噢。

男的：Stefano,在墨尔本的某个咖啡店当Barista,意大利人嘛对咖啡都是很有研究的（我想），跟他说话比较难因为他英文不大流利，所以我们两个不同国籍语言的人沟通全靠samanta当翻译。这次真正的听到意大利文，又快又有卷舌音，好像绕口令。

接下来我们就跟他们一起夜游悉尼。

我也没想到，这个还蛮random的。

对！就是这个。最具象征性的歌剧院。Sydney Opera House

由于本人摄影技术是垫底，所以不会拍摄夜景。浪费死了！那么贵的相机到我手中却不会用。我们从Backpackers一路走了大概一个小时才到这里。我们是幸运的，因为那两个星期有Vivid Sydney灯光秀，所以有很多不同的镭射灯放射到歌剧院屋顶，把沉闷的白色变得绚丽缤纷。秒杀相机的储存量。

我们也登上了另一个景点：Harbour Bridge，她就是跟歌剧院一套的那座桥。

就是这个啦，明信片都有的。

红点说：恭喜你，你已经到了桥中央。

前面的女人是Samanta，由于他们早上就在走，所以她的脚已经开始喊救命了。

从桥上望去的Circular Quay.

过不久，也有人的脚要喊救命了。

下了一阵毛毛雨后的悉尼，晚上是另一种神态。白天像很认真的老头，晚上变得很YOUNG。由于那晚是Saturday Night,照理说，都是疯狂的一晚。也让我见识了悉尼的夜生活。如果旅途没有Stefano 和Samanta，我们也不敢夜游。毕竟是大城市。

天气微冷，女生都穿很短的裙，在套上一个厚皮衣，到了Club就脱下。而且一路走来发现很多间夜店都开在大街，不像我们这里的比较隐秘。而且很热闹，整条街都有人喝醉酒，吐得满地都是。也有人在大街上跳舞，管他车来车往。

回到Backpackers已经是1点多。我们就梳洗睡觉。在这之前，让我揭露脚的主人。

她不是别人，就是……

噔噔！随着右鞋底的根部留在桥上之外，左鞋底也开始脱离队伍了。

（还有更精彩的哟还有更精彩的哟还有更精彩的哟还有更精彩的哟还有更精彩的哟！）

不好意思，要分2篇来写悉尼，因为用脚走路的行程，拍的照片和看到的地方都很多。本人是比较固执，一定要把走到的地方都写。

p/s: 很高兴认识Samanta 和Stefano，他们第二天早上就回墨尔本了。我们也继续了脚程。

青春的尾巴2 - 未来要过的生活就要像这样！

2011-06-27T12:11:00.000+08:00

2/6 睡到11早上然后步行到Robina Town Centre 买机票。
决定了要到Sydney去，来到澳洲不给他看一看Opera House未免也说不过去了吧。

原本以为坐巴士会比较便宜……殊不知巴士来回要$198而且16个小时。
飞机才$168，1个小时半。有脑子的都知道要选哪个吧？
感觉很兴奋，第一次到外国还要搭他们的国内航线。

我们的第一个礼拜其实没有做很多旅客该做的事比如到处走走，逛纪念品店之类的。
我们都是到处溜达，在McDonald里消耗时间上个网。
Australia 的McDonald's有McCafe这种东西。也就是那种专卖各类咖啡的小柜台。

我们的Mocha，一点也不输星星的爸爸。

看起来很专业的泡咖啡机器

3/6 Bond University > Pacific Fair> Beachfront Market

走出Karen家门外的景。澳洲的蓝天，让我每次看到都不经意的叹气。

Riverwalk 的湖。他们随随便便就有个那么美丽的小湖，而且有鸭子。

这里要找个湖都难。

我们，闯进了别人的大学，就当了一下Bond Uni 的学生。

听说这是当地很有名的私立大学，学费不便宜噢！

我们的合照！

找不到HealthScience的牌子，这个充当一下下好了。

要是我们的学校有如此的风景（上&下），我一定天天都去上课！

喷水池！

后来我们到Pacific Fair去，我买了一双Brooklyn Boots $20, 换算马币是很贵但是你不换的话，哪里能用20买双鞋子呢？不过现在想想，在这里穿还是有点怪怪的，以后星期六穿去图书馆念书好了。

晚上到了Beachfront Market

5.51pm，当地时间。天色却像9点了。刚开始我还真的很不习惯！

拍照啊

随便就拍了一张。Beachfront Market是一个好像手工艺的市场，大家把自己拿手的手艺摆出来赚点钱。要是我能有这样的手艺就好。

（Tips: 从Pacific Fair搭乘750号巴士都会到，但是要聪明下车。我们走了一段路，才到的。因为下错站了）

在Hungry Jack买了个鸡肉汉堡。$4.95呢！牛肉的还更便宜，可惜我不能吃。澳洲的鸡农都比较少么？

这里有数不清的roundabout,在公车司机非常高超的驾驶技术下，分分钟会有想吐的感觉。因为过了一个大的roundabout,接着一个小的。不过这个交通圈的方法比较安全，他们很少十字路口，而且道路规划都比较顺，虽然有些地方只能一个进口，出口往往都在另一边，说着是兜个大圈子，但他们都不厌其烦，驾驶也很慢，说慢而安全好过快而险。反之这里，虽然有交通圈但大家都各不相让，只好把交通圈给堵住了。如果设计一个出口另一边是进口，大家都会说：啊？你要我兜酱大个圈子咩？ -届时大家都会选择铤而走险，反方向啊。

他们的温馨小提醒告示牌告诉你：错了！这里不能出噢，请退回去！

还有，用脚步行的朋友们，来到这里是很好的。因为他们对于路人的福利看得很重要，有设斑马线，而且不是白设的。他们车子只要看到斑马线，不管有没有人要过马路他们都会慢下来。当你站在斑马线旁边，车子要到达了斑马线都不会狂踏油门嗖嗖而去，他们都会停下来让你过了马路才走。如果是两个方向的马路那就更厉害了，你才过了这一边的斑马线，另一边的早就停下来等你过了。

这里嘛……让车子走了你才能过呀。

*不好意思拖了那么久才po这个。

青春的尾巴1- 热情的黄金海岸

2011-06-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

何谓青春的尾巴？就是要转大人了 ~ [没有很喜欢长大的感觉]
人人说21岁就是生命中最重要的一年，所以我干了点事。

搭了飞机，带着12.5kg的行李

八个小时~

到了这里啦！

带了竭尽所能捏出来的600澳元，准备用12天，把脑子的一部分填满21岁的回忆。
由于本人为学生，没有很大的资金，搭乘的是亚航X（Air Asia ）的班机到Gold Coast (黄金海岸)。

呆呆自拍照一张为证，6月1日抵达黄金海岸机场。心里是非常兴奋外加莫名的自豪。
入住倩怡小姐的亲戚家~感恩各位协助实现旅游梦想。

我坐飞机最不喜欢的就是要降落的时候，下跌的气压搞得我很想吐。
加上在飞机上气压的变换，有小孩的时候更甭想睡了。

印象最深刻的是大概GMT +8的时间3.00am, 望着窗外看见一辈子也没见过的景象：
那时候飞机应该是飞在海上，没有云朵的夜空是布满了星星，有的还很清楚的看到星座的形状，海面是平静的，所以感觉上飞机是在一个堆满星星的空间里飞行。（我很想拍照，但是机舱里灯光较亮，没办法，请各位自行想象）

从飞机上看到接近澳洲大陆的时候地形的变化也是很惊人（别怪我嘛，当着是乡巴佬出城呗）Rocky moutain terrain > Fluffy green coated terrain > residental area > industrial area

不懂是哪一边呀。

到了机场严格的检验，还有专业训练的狗在嗅行李。有很多东西不能带入境，例如：奶制品和奶类，鱼类，动物制成品等等。因为顾虑到国家是岛国，要是细菌入侵就只能是有进没有出。所以严格是应该的。

一抵步的天气居然是毛毛雨迎接，14度的外头凉凉的很好。

到了她的亲戚家（Karen的家），很美丽和干净。还有Tia，可爱的小不点但是很多问号在脑袋里，每天固定一定要问：‘你做么嘢啊？’ 也很贪吃噢。:)

Tia

In case你们看见后面的poster，我来解释。房间的主人是非常热衷于小贾斯丁的女孩，各位看到的那一张只是冰山一角，整个房间都是他的脸，好像他的专属博物院一样。

例如这样：

我第一次看到的时候都快吓死了！

然后跟倩怡讨论行程。做功课噢！自己旅行的第一优点是，像我们两个那么悠悠的人格可以自己排时间。

地图和参考书ready了就准备go。

一下子后我们就搭乘karen的顺风车到了Surfers Paradise

（翻译名字是什么确实不太懂，字面翻译应该就是‘冲浪者的天堂’）

感谢亲爱的倩怡作为我旅途的kawan!

在Surfers Paradise附近的一个广场

这种鸟在那里好像我们这里的麻雀一样普通啊~到处都是！

超舒服的view!这样的海景是很养眼。

冲浪的人们。

看了又有没有觉得他们的天空怎么那么蓝！？

我们。要原谅因为只有这样才能把我们两个拍进去啊。

虽然说6月的澳洲慢慢步入冬天，但是还有很多敢死队的他们穿着短裤背心跑步，也有穿着bikini在沙滩上晒太阳。不过那时的天气正是舒服的，对我们来说像云顶，他们觉得根本就是……普通吧。

这里有些老人下中国象棋，那里的是下西洋棋。虽然地方不同、棋子也不一样，至少这个文化还是一样的吧。

我们稍后搭巴士回家(在Robina ) ，一程要价澳元4.60，换算的话就……很贵啊~后来我们学乖了去买了一张Translink 的go card，类似这里的Touch n' go, 搭巴士，火车，ferry boat都比较便宜。不过好像只限于South West Queensland 区域。Sydney不能用。

（提示：有学生证的话更是会拿到Consession card,还要便宜一点。不过不清楚外国学生证是否有效，大家不妨一试。）

后来再更进研究发现公共交通们的行驶费都有分peak和off peak，早上9点到下午3.30属于off peak，更加便宜。收费都看到底你横跨了几个zone。（不过好心提示：公共交通费是一笔很大的开销，能走的就用脚走比较好。人多的话租车驾驶更划算。）

Karen家附近的Riverwalk区，看着渐暗的天空是不是很美咧。但是当地时间还没到傍晚六点，冬天的白天是很短的。Shopping Centre五点就开始准备关门了。我们买了一些东西就匆忙赶回家。

第一天就大概这样结束了。迟些照片整理了会po上fb,要看的话就去看吧！

请各位要期待下一篇！！

三八的自述

2011-05-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

人，是要经一事方能长一智的。
俗话不俗，说得一点儿也没错。

很久以前的那一天之后，我对自己承诺过：没事就别开口说话，不怕事多只怕多事。别人的事，别贸贸然打听，人家还不见得想告诉你。你是哪根葱啊？

小三八是我以前小学的外号，亲戚都觉得我这个孩子怎么话多而且敢说。
我总觉得自己很对，别人也对但是我会希望别人认为我的意见更好。

后来中学之后我也没常八卦人家的事，听了就好，因为感觉很好玩，“故事”嘛也发展得很精彩。中学五年笑着过人生，也没出神马意见，人家说我也点头，人云亦云。

现在上了点年纪，反而小三八性格又跑回来了。不知道是不是人老了就想过得小孩子气点。
可能脑子也老了，忘记说话要思考才能把句子说出来，要么就不铺排好随便说却被扭曲了意思。人家脑子转得快不见得自己也会一样。一个意思去了别人的脑里出来又是另一回事。
个人见地不一样呀~囧

我得管理脑袋，告诉它：没你的事别转。上课念书你就转快些吸收吸收，课外的事你就别理了，听过就算。

我突然想起，前些年我和朋友吵了一架，翻脸后一些日子我主动和好。
后来又在候搞活动意见不对跟人家（另一个）抬杠，闹得后来我们也没说话。但是不久以后我们却像老人痴呆一样什么都不记得也到现在还好好的在一起。

现在在“转大人”的世界里，或许我真的很不够成熟，还需要琢磨“做人要圆滑些这个道理”。或许我说话像没脑子的白目，但是有时候我的脑子跟嘴巴是连线的，刹车不及啊。

但是我很诚恳地告诉你们，我在认真学习改变。
学习着无论听到了什么都当听歌；人家说了什么笑一笑就好，别搭嘴。
忍着。

噢。如果你们看到这里开始觉得我这个人很有问题的话，对不起啦。

星期一是最后一场考试！拜托让我不要有重考的机会！我不要再花那些无谓的钱了！

1 down 4 to go!

2011-05-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

(i know this photo is super random)

yes. I just reached home 20 minutes ago. Still not taken my bath yet since washing machine is taking over the pressure something. So if the washing machine on, i can't bath with the pee-size water.

is 10.21pm now.
Me, with my saggy eye bags and concentrated brain cells. Hmmm. ~~and smelly hairs~~
Today is the first day of freaking EOS! First paper is Basic Biochemistry, 30 mcq, 5 saq and 1 essay question.
As usual, I always use the cakar ayam hand writing whenever is in the important exam. So I finished earlier not because i m super smart tht i can do all questions with no doubt, is my chickenclaw handwriting. Hope lecturers can understand me. :")

Tmr is Food Prep paper. One of the subject with no directions. Which means no proper lesson outcome, module outcome. It's stated but is in general way. So meaning that you r fcking study every shtwords of every chapters.

gonna stuck them all in!

When there is exam coming or on going, i will facing super great amount of hair loss everyday. my hair now is getting thinner. Even now i m so afraid of combing my hair cz they are now super precious to me! :(

Thinking of it, actually time do past pretty fast. Today is wednesday, soon i wil be talking about tmr is saturday's account paper blablabla. then monday is the last day of exam. then rest for few days, heading down for another course then FUUUYEEAHH!. gonna pack my bags.

Ok. take care everyone.! *i declare the library of my uni is now my favourite place for these coming week.

I MET A PRINCE..ehh?

2011-05-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

Due to the fever of royal marriage between Prince William and Catherine, Duchess of Cambridge..
I feel like I must get myself in love or something.
People keep getting married. This is disturbing. Reminds me about my social network age are increasing, soon or later i shall receive invite from friends? god no.

Ya. I know i suppose to study now but..let me take a break.
I m abstained myself from sign in to facebook. I just typed my email n password in to the coloumn but quickily referesh the page once again and came to here. So thought of why not just express here and i can type hell long of stuff. FB status too long will reduce attractiveness. LOLOL

I met a prince. No doubt.
Nah. not the true royal blood prince.
I mean I saw a guy from my university, who walk like a prince, dress like one even his smile also princey.

Not that he had the super gorgeous look as Prince Andrea Casiraghi whom inherited the 'perfectlookinggene' from Princess Grace.
Who say people who wear spec is not attractive?
I think he is.

Wei, don't laugh lar i know i m doing some stuupid day dreaming.
Let me relax my brain because its just stuffed full with ketogenesis,glucoeogenesis,glyocolysis,citric cycle. I need something interesting for my brain. sexy and fun.

I must pray for good CGPA and love.
and for all of you, who read this blog or out there, seeking for the true love.

updates

2011-05-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

fck. I just checked the calendar, and my finals are 16 days away from this moment.
16 days. minus 1 day tmr and tuesday. so 15 days.
oomfg.
But thank god i reduced my time spent on facebook, surfing net, watching glee :( which is probably due to guilt-feeling that is gradually increasing.
Today went for mother's day lunch with mom's family.
then sissy suggested Jusco Seremban 2.

and we only reach home at 6pm. bathed,ate and now looking at my first aid book cz tmr got assessment.

Goal before next week end (hereby means Saturday): finished study 'Principle of Food Preparation' which is totally a dumbass subject and halfway on my biochemistry. Another week is spend on F.Accounting sub and the Food Culture sub.

most of my kawans are finishing their finals and i m yet to start. T.T

I need shopping therapy.

Okay, gotta go. May god bless my brain.

I

2011-04-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

I really have to apologize here about my poor-little-blog.

Didn't do much update. even after the dumb ass preview and i didn't write anything at all.
So sorry.

Had my food culture day done. IT test done. so basically today I just slept through for my very first day of study break.
Literally, study break should meant for 'a break from study' or to 'break the study time.'
hmmm.. should delete those thinking cz i have to do some catch up. Probably go nesting at library like i did last time for everyday. well not everyday mayb one day go do some crazy shopping. Not sure nesting in library is productive but at least i m doing something.

*well here is something out of topic.

I didn't know how nasty one's personality could be. I mean, what's on earth that person can turns out to be?
I was trying not to believe what I heard or seen. Well, sometimes the ugly truth always hidden at the most bottom of the well-decorated mask.

And when the mask is torn off, see it urself like 'Ripley's believe it or not'.

I had my most unhappy days ,describe it with one word: emotional.
I cried and cried , literally or in deep down my heart. Or probably due to those songs that I 've been listening for most of the days. Or maybe due to those unexplainable reasons that engaged into my mind.

Friendship, love-complicated feelings, guilt,stress and hopeless.

Now I really have no idea what is the definition for 'Friendship'. To you, is probably just a common spices that needed to flavor your life and soon or later you don't need it. But to me, it's kinda like a parasite, must stuck with it until i die. And everything changed when you said that.

When guilt come with stress and hopeless also tagging along, I m broken. Well of course is in emotional way.
Probably I am not a good speaker and a good friend, but I am trying to be one. So coping all the problems and issues is the biggest outcome that I am hoping for. and FYI, I am not as dumb as some people thinks.

I guess this is enough. Sorry if i boring you. but Thanks, for listening.

and one more song to share:

and some english songs too: Lady Antebellum - Hello World, Parachute- Kiss me Slowly.

Let's us get our fingers crossed. and oh ya i m learning Jive in uni, quite fun actually. training for my brain coordination too. is beginner steps so I am looking forward for more and more latin dance!

shall see ya soon. :)

It's March already and still marching forward

2011-03-06T13:48:00.000+08:00

A little updates of my current life:
Reports,assignments and assignments. It's like never end.

I hope I own a camera or something. will make my life easier on taking photos.
My phone is not really designed for photo taking but at least i can use it to capture something funny around my life.
but...I need bigger mega pixel! daahahahhhaha.

yes, I booked myself a holiday trip as 21st birthday celebration. together with my sec school bff.
I don't throw a party. cz I dunno who I should invite and who I shouldn't.
Waiting ppl to rsvp to event is gila and exhausting. They might ffk you at the last moment.
21st party must be very impressive * my thought

Shhht. I am 21st! Not reaching birthday yet so just count as 20 la.
Hmmm....recently I have been recruited as one of the Malats&Aunties gang in my course. In case you dunno what is Malats = Ma Lat Lou (cantonese). Aunties for sure are girls la.
We basically have one characteristic in common. Like to eat everywhere and have fun. C'est Le Vie is like our motto or something. So,we are enjoying every moment of uni life, took silly photos, ~~drinking,~~ crack some lame jokes. We are not the studious type that will sit our ass together and say "hello books!". I mean of cz we all are students, but we hardly have 14 of us together and study. study thing, we are in separate ways. :)

Things that we do together are EAT and PLAY.

So, I will try to update this pity blog.
gonna continue hunt down those assignments!

昔日今天还有不明的未来

2011-02-13T01:48:00.002+08:00

很想，回到小时候。

因为那时候的我们生活简单。

“老师，早上好。”

很想，回到那年我们都是青春的一群少年。

那么一点点的叛逆。

尝到初恋，酸涩甜的味道。

来得及，抓住青春的尾巴，战战兢兢地步入社会。

很想，回到那年。

我们都长大了……一点。

像风筝一样，飞得很高，但还是被线系着。

一味的，要找寻所谓的自由。

也向往放洋的生活。

现在的我们，总爱在迷茫中，像孩子一样，嚷着要回到过去。

惦记着停留在那段美好时光的我们，其实是禁不起现实的压力考验。

总是想当年，羡慕小时候的自己，无忧无虑。

不必为爱情烦恼。

不必为了争取学分耍小计。

我们每天都比昨天长大了一些，成熟了一点。

看事物也看得透一点。

学会了机警在危难中抽身，才不至于一败涂地。

也学会了控制脾气，怕坏了事。

更加明白了，弱肉强食不只是动物世界的专利，也是人类的本性。

这一点一滴慢慢的填满我们的思想，覆盖着昔日的童真。

小时候做错事，总有父母责骂和安慰。但是这些都不是必然的。

适时学会成长，偶尔把自己缩小一些，才可以明白，地球不是绕着你转，是你要学会如何让地球转得好。

21岁的我，慢慢开始前进。

芙蓉小镇-出名的不只是烧包了

2011-02-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

人怕出名猪怕肥。

这句话我非常赞同，尤其是今晚之后。

我两样都怕，但是我觉得一个人成名了会影响很多事。比如从大闸门走进家门短短15秒不到的时间，她用了半个小时。

我外婆和婆婆家都在芙蓉。一个本来出名的是烧包的小镇，现在多了一个李佳薇姐姐。
今年除夕夜到初三，亲朋戚友在拜年期间讨论的除了一些时事还有李佳薇姐姐。
对，就是第七届超级星光大道的总冠军。
因为她把这个小镇的名字镶在国际之间了，虽然没有突然爆出一大堆游客这种事，但大家都知道这届冠军哪来的。什么小学，什么中学，突然都沾光了。我也是~ \(#^.^#)/ 沾一沾！

今天我遇到她啦外加握手和照相~ 真是幸运，所以来年我万事顺利到爆。

*
新的一年，突然多了很多小孩。
我也第一次抱过很多一岁不到的小孩。
很软，很香。Me很有潜质做保姆。（瞎话）
他们的世界很美好，不用赶report，不用开口讲话。

祝大家兔年行好运！发大财！桃花运连连，全都是好的！学业步步高升！

Week 2

2011-01-22T20:37:00.000+08:00

Nah. not counting maternal term ni. haha!

i've been through 2nd week of this semester. Which I am glad that I can get through from sem 1. with a lousy result. super low cGPA.

My gang in the course was went from 5 to 4. And on monday the 5th ppl will back from boredom to class. Finally he is approved for passing.and the uni earn another extra rm500 for few ticks in remark papers.

I learnt from my mistake in passed sem.
1. Didn't study for 200%.
2. Thought I am that kind of smart ass.
3. and actually I am lousy.
4. Not concentrate enough. Too many in-class outing . Either mentally or physically.

I stated some of my goals for this sem. Which later i gonna practice it.
1. Study everything and don't care about tips or whatsoever.
2. Don't go out too much between classes. cz most of the times we never reach uni in time after that and have to skipped it.

And thanks to my mum for not nagging me , and didn't scold me for low cGPA.
I will promise you that I will pay 200% will and goodness into my studies. So your investment is worth for it and I 'll make you proud when I toss my square hat up to the blue sky.

To everyone out there who are struggling to survive in new semester/trimester like I do:
We gonna get through all of these!

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone. Have you all did your CNY shopping yet?
I gonna do the 2nd round in next week.

p/s: can't wait to meet my friends.

Sorry That I Loved You

2011-01-06T17:10:00.000+08:00

他在橱窗外注视着她。

她把所有的摆设抹干净，虽然顾客不多，但是整间店是一尘不染。

[欢迎光临！] 门口的铃铛在顾客进来的时候响了一下。

一个妇女牵着小孩在店里绕了一圈，小孩东摸摸西摸摸，不小心就把摆在架子上的玩偶打破了。她被一声惊醒，想追着妇女要钱但这个时候人影都不见了。

[怎么那么分神？]他看着她在店里打扫碎片，喃喃自语的说。

[看什么那么入神啊，旭？ ……你的前女友？] 穆木拍了拍他的肩膀，向店里望去。
他点点头。

[你呢？去找了谁？]

[一个老朋友啊，因为一场误会而分开了。她还很好，不错。]穆木说。

[你爱她吗？] 穆木点点头。

[我也是。但是我们都是时候放手了不是吗？]旭无奈的继续望着里面的她。

[对。不过希望她们都放手了。太累了。]穆木空洞的说。

[等我一下，我到对面花店。总该买些什么吧。]旭说。

[你要怎么送啊？当面啊？别犯规呀！] 穆木大喊。旭老早跑到对面去了。

[伪装不就好了吗。] 他说。

*

[叮铃！] 店门被推开。

[欢迎光临！]

[小姐，有人叫我送花来这个地址。] 花店店员把一大束的太阳花递给她。

[噢。谢谢。] 店员礼貌地笑笑以后就离开了。

穆木看着里面的她，旭在一旁得意的微笑着。

[这样不好吧？要是被发现了你就走不了！]穆木担心的说。

[没关系。反正我们都不会回来这里了。]

她望着一堆看起来颇有生气的太阳花，样子却没有快乐。
打开附着的卡片，她的嘴角微微向上。她一直都坚信自己的感觉。

“郁惠，你愿意以后都像旭阳那样快乐的生活下去吗？答应我，要快乐”

[你看啦！弄她哭了啦。]穆木说。

[希望她哭完这一次就好。]

[干嘛送太阳花？]穆木不解。

[因为我叫旭，我说太阳是我的，所以每次我对着她都把太阳叫着旭阳。因为她说太阳花都向着太阳，所以她说自己是太阳花，每次都向着我。]

穆木和旭看着店里良久，沉默的。

[走啦，到时间了。看多几眼都没差吧，到下一世你就不记得了。]穆木拉着他。

留下的只是繁忙的街道，店里面静谧的氛围，她啜泣的声音。

[旭，我会快乐的。]

-完-

Au Revoir 2010

2010-12-26T17:48:00.000+08:00

Yes. in few more days, we will kiss 2010's ass goodbye and wave for another new year.
Sounds rude here but for exchange, my 2010 is nearly like a piece of sponge.
With holes, capable to absorb water. While you squeeze it, and release water. except my 2010 not yellow at all.

why with holes? Because it's not compact with fun stuff.
holes are most of the time I feel myself not living days to the fullest.
Absorb water as knowledge, when you squeeze it, everything just left to nothing.

Probably next year my life could has brick as metaphore.
solid and heavy, can knock down people somemore.

In 2010, most of my friends started their college/universities year.
some even flew to another countries.
I wish i could. But I just stuck in here. Happy or not I still have to deal with it.

Did I regret about what I chose?
Nope. or Not yet. I 'm not sure whether in future I will be regret about it...
As long I passed this semester, everything will be good as usual. I will less facebook-ing and more studying.
Less movielunch and more classes.
Less alcohol and more healthy stuff.

Oops. promised myself not to write resolutions.
because not sure i will follow the list.
Not draw hopes on any pre-planed-in-mind trips.
Like I did last year, I still didn't get a chance to visit Redang Island.

better keep it quiet and let it be. :)
Wish everybody have a great start of new year!

愁呀愁，离别之际挥洒泪两行。挥呀挥，故人离别背影似难熬。

2010-12-22T12:40:00.000+08:00

题目来乱的，应应景。

离乡背井之愁和忧我不懂。
严格来说，我吃了20年，没有离乡背井过。

Homesick，动不动就想家的感觉我没试过。
别那么快下定论说我是赖家的软骨子，不能独立。
我能，但念书的地方就那么巧从小学起，就一直在KL圈子里面。

不曾离开过。说起来有点冤魂不散。寒~

我以前很向往那种“长大了+收拾行李+离开家里+到外地求学+努力上进+荣誉生毕业+丢四方帽+光宗耀祖”之类的。

除了第一个和第三个每天都在实行之外，都不知道其他的还是不是如此。
武吉加里尔山算不算很远?比起其他的朋友，那里简直就是比邻。

有点小羡慕朋友们走的远一点去念书。
感觉自己有长大到，懂得缴水电费，到银行处理事务，自己打理自己。
尤其在别乡，自己就是那里的“老外”了，人生地不熟，什么是都从零开始（除了银行户头之外）。我除了吃和花之外好像懂很少。有点不孝。

如果我说大羡慕他们会杀了我。因为我天天在家，天天睡自己的床，想干吗就干吗。
而他们总是绕在思乡之愁。

所以说人是很矛盾的。得不到的就想要，有了还想要人家没有的。

圣诞老阿伯，我知道你年年都有很多人给你许愿，要这个和那个。
我什么都不缺，我只要我的organic chemistry可以pass。
来年给你批个健康食谱，你有点太重了。

说起来我的减肥计划减到外太空了。
不知道如何继续。
停滞不前，怪自己心想减，但不去力行。哈哈！

爱情，难道是这样纪念的吗？

2010-12-13T23:15:00.000+08:00

是一篇愚人之见。
关于前阵子闹得满城风雨的案子。
身为局外人，真的不好意思再说些什么了。

没错，多数的爱情是用生命来纪念的。
只是在于那是开始而不是结束。
人相爱而在一起，结婚，生小孩。
小孩就是一个新生命的伊始，来纪念两个人之间的爱情。

我对恋爱这门子不熟悉，没什么经验。说了这里只是旁观者之见，请各位以宽大的心来阅读。

爱情这种东西不像[卡门]里所唱的：爱情不过是一种消遣的东西，有什么了不起

错！是很了不起，箇中利害很深，足以让人泥足深陷，不能自拔，最后选择以结束来纪念爱情。让我有天大的胆子，我也不愿意就此了结一生。

因为20年的光阴很短，我还没真正摸索地球。
还没发现地球的别一端到底有没有一个人长得跟我很像。
还没把父母给的一切还给他们。
还没见过雪景。
还没到过迪士尼。
还没到过哈里波特片场。
还没遇到大明星。
还没大学毕业。
还没遇到会陪伴自己一生最好的朋友。
还没坐过热气球。
还没溜过冰。
还没养到一条狗。
还没去过巴黎。
还没去过巴厘……岛。
还没去过夏威夷。

还没找到任何一个理由让我放弃呼吸的机会。
没有。

我好胜，所以我会用时间做很多事。因为相信一天24小时是有道理的。
很多事不是这样就能解决。
因为留下的不会是纪念，而是痛苦。
因为你解脱了，别人却被捆住。

结束了的爱情，可以用别的方式来凭吊。
例如：忘掉，向前看，不要再回头。

*此文乃属本人愚人之见，不代表任何一方。

噢。没通过。

2010-12-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

我是指Organic Chemistry。拿成绩以前都很平静，只是撕开成绩单的那一刹那，手指变得很不听使唤。

没通过一科。如果这次重考又考坏了，我就不能和现在的朋友们毕业了。

我不想。

我开始了这个生活模式，就必须这个样子结束。
白话文的意思就是：我认识了这班同学，就必须跟他们一起毕业。
老娘我喜欢做事有始有终。

这次我需要奇迹。
需要勇气。
需要毅力。
需要决心。

我要把Organic Chemistry 的底翻得他阿妈都不认得。浅至大概，深至每片细胞里的染色体。
摸清底细，所谓知此知彼，百战百胜。
我要把Organic Chemistry 的皮拆开，挑出筋来，把他的筋弄成皮鞭。

这次，不成功便成仁。

战争开始。

啊。让我通过吧。

2010-11-24T13:35:00.000+08:00

第182篇，我不知道该用英文还是华语。

生活没怎么样，刚结束考试。今天正式放假，至少……在3号以前我是轻松的。
5张paper考得没有非常好，都三颗星。希望它们全都通过，若要我再花多一年重念，我真的不知道该怎么办。

Organic Chemistry 根本就不是我的强项，两次小考都不及格，还有一张拿F,我们又看不到批改方式和答案，都是死了都不知道什么事。

昨天到Puchong Sense Cafe喝东西，听人家唱歌，很佩服，歌喉好，会弹琴伴奏*前提：没有歌谱，人长得又好看。我相信这是好运的降临，说明我这个假期不能白过，一定要好好利用。

大学第一个学期就这样结束了，20K的学费就在我眼皮底下，几个月的时间里没了。我得到了什么？新的开始，对人性的一面有了新的定义。我每次都问我自己，念这个是不是我要的？我没有后悔，但不担保以后。至少我觉得我没有想逃避的感觉。

我还有7个学期要过，但这个我一定得通过才行。不想再花自己的青春在课业上。很多余，全都怪要文凭学位才能找工作的思想腐败。我的原有梦想，是真的一个梦。因为实现不了，也许以后可以，当我豁达一些，我就会放下这里的一切，环游地球。因为我很相信读万卷书，不如行万里路。我看得多，知道天外有天，别的国家文化、不同的人，我才真正觉得自己属于这里。

如果2012世界末日这种东西是真的，我肯定会放弃学业，去做自己喜欢的事。
但如果不是，到头来就蠢死了。

噢。希望金刚变形计划要再activate。

23 818 号房所发生的事

2010-10-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

不是鬼故事。不过我倒看了一部[童眼]，被人家拉去看。
遮遮掩掩就看完了，还有点奇怪。
我真的对鬼故事没有兴趣，拜托下次怎么样都要让我在戏院门口外面等你们！

昨天上山吹风，想到考完一些无聊的paper后来轻松一下。
可是只要每次上山，我就会有种莫名的感觉。
可能以前只要到云顶，总会有些事发生而改变了一些原本美好的事，好笑的和让人忘不了的都有。
上山前都觉得有点毛毛的。

看，说中了吧。
酒精和扑克牌的帮助下……
许多我觉得该要发生的事，终于浮出了一些些蛛丝马迹。
所以说，该来的，怎么挡都挡不了。

可能看到这里你们觉得一头雾水。
因为毕竟言论自由有限制，有些事这里不好说。
算了~
总之那天两个小时5个人都干掉了2/3的Green Label，玩得疯癫也玩出祸。
吐的吐，醉的醉。
我当扫背递纸巾的小妹啦~我也有点醉掉但能撑得起，多得多年喝红酒的嗜好。昨晚也没喝很多，2杯加水的。

还好乱吃乱喝没有胖到。明天要回到现实世界了，希望一切安好。

-金刚暂时不变形-但希望脑子变得好使些

2010-10-20T21:41:00.001+08:00

这里很久都没更新。
没什么好写了，肥照减，舞照跳。
看来有点成果，体重下降一公斤，维持中。
可能有些人觉得：一公斤罢了你都要算？减掉五公斤才厉害。

我这种是有计划而不是乱减的。
不是晚餐空腹睡觉，也不是水果当正餐。
我有配合运动，但还是不够。一个礼拜摇一次，觉得太少了；STUDY WEEK 的每天清晨，希望能够跑步。

最近都嘛烦课业。
没闲暇的时间烦其他的。
朋友恋爱中，刚萌芽。多祝福祝福！希望我也能沾沾桃花气~
明天小考，两场。后天一张大考，星期六一张大考（废的）。我看这个星期六以后我就来个暂时性全身放松症。到时候，减肥当吹风去了！乱吃呗！

更新近况就到这里。吞书去了~

同学们都要加油，要相亲相爱，我们才刚上完第一个学期呀。

金刚要变形了- 手脚不协调

2010-09-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

为了让自己更离目标近一点，我去上拉丁舞了！
拉丁舞耶~ （有点自豪）

小时候很爱看电视节目里那些国标高手扭来扭去的，跟着音乐节奏，仿佛自己就是那些音符。
喜欢Rumba，Jive，还有斗牛舞。
以前自认自己对跳舞的拍子抓得很好，结果昨天发现根本不是怎么一回事。

我学Cha-Cha，但我觉得左脚右脚搭不起来。
人家都很快就学会了，唯独我还在哪里盲人摸象，一直踏错脚。

紧张死了。
丢脸死了。

但是为了目标，还是得撑着！打败手脚不协调的魔咒！
虽然一个星期只是一堂课，但起码比起之前一个星期我都没怎么动过还好吧？
可能效果没那么快，不过慢慢来，这种事儿。

最近功课很多，搞得我精神压力爆表，开始乱说话了。
认识我的朋友，知道我只要压力太大，什么话我也可以乱说，乱发脾气。
因为没办法，我不会释放压力这些东西。

如果外面有谁被我得罪到，对不起啦。忙完这些事儿我就会轻松点。

金刚要变形了- 忏悔中，发英雄帖了

2010-09-25T17:50:00.001+08:00

岁月催人老。这句话一点也不夸张，那天我很有心情地把hardisk里面的照片都翻过来看一遍，想说找出一张和朋友的合照，结果，我看着看着，感觉越来越不对路，怎么照片里的人看起来又熟悉，却有点陌生呢？

照片里的都是我和朋友们在中学毕业典礼拍的。百多张的照片，看到以前的我，我居然有点心酸的感觉。突然很想年过去的自己，以前巴不得中学快点念完，想说外面的世界在等着我去发掘；现在，想回到过去的感觉油然而生。

女生就是有种病态思想，老是觉得自己这里多肉，那里松弛，升了0.5公斤就想勒死自己的胃。以前我没这样觉得，也压根儿没想过要减肥。是的，看到这里可以称我为自大，可是当时的我根本没有为了体重而烦恼，因为我觉得刚刚好。

我看着以前的照片，现在我倒觉得再不控制自己，就会胀得连我妈都不认识。
因为我看着相片的自己，觉得怎么当时的我是到底为了什么那么清啊？看起来很会生病。

现在我除了黑眼圈以外，大概就是横阔去了。

以前一天可能没机会吃到饭粒，现在……算了。

所以我定下了目标，要把多出来的公斤减回去中学时候的重量。至少这个年底之前要做到，毕竟现在没戴牙套了，不是铁牙妹了。不然那些钱都付诸于流水，毕生想变漂亮的愿望都无法实现。看着橱窗的塑胶人形公仔，怎么同一件衣服穿在她们的身上好像极品，我穿就会变得很怪。

如果没法，起码不要会摇晃的蝴蝶袖和松弛大腿内侧。人总给自己找台阶，别把话撂得太恨。哈！

请~~投我一票~~ 多多支持我。下英雄帖，正式来向2号衣服挑战去！

更新一下，乱乱写

2010-09-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

结婚是一辈子的事。
携手共度人生的后半段，相互依靠和帮助。
再怎么说，另一伴就是你人生中最好的朋友。

他懂你最多，知道你爱吃姜还是蒜头；
了解你为什么不喜欢某种颜色还是哪位明星；
记得你说过的一些事，懂得在危急时刻替你解难。

* 完全题外话。

近来忽略了这里，也没有好好的写文章或者小说之类的。
写了也没多少人得空看。
文笔也越来越退步了，写不出那种抓住心情继续让人阅读下去的精神。

得好好揣摩一下，或者请高手指明。

部落格现在不能乱说话了，反正我平时也没怎么乱说。
本人现在越来越想谈恋爱了，看了[个人取向]后觉得有一个Gay朋友也不错，起码他怎样也不会对你起邪念或则让你伤心。还能无条件帮你跑腿买卫生棉，为你打造新造型让你变成一个有魅力的女人……。这部韩剧说非常好看也不到，起码它能让我一直看下去。

要冲刺了！考试来临啦~

有关注这里的朋友请多多包涵另加提醒我要为这里写新东西。
有新东西后请让你的朋友们来参观一下，我怕这里变废墟了呢。

Wood.grains.oil.salt.sauce.vinegar.tea (whr's sugar)?!

2010-08-30T21:23:00.000+08:00

Few weeks ago, we're just strangers and happened to studied in the same course.

Today, we're classmate/course mate/ or whateva u said.

It's Monday Blue as dress code, if you wonder why.

and the 'Enter' button on my keyboard is paralyzed. After pressing, will only reach the next line in few minutes. wtf.

If you ask me now, how do i think about the new life thing...
Yes, I'm blending in. Enjoying it at the same time. Although study is not the fun stuff to do, but meeting interesting people with interesting characters is definitely the best thing to do.

One thing that make me feel guilty and bad after enter this uni is..
I spent 3 times higher than what i spent in college time.
Don't ask how much i spent for one week, with lunch-outings,buy snacks when there's break time (This is why sometimes i hate the DB cafe at library floor), movies when there are super-fucking-long-break, with all this, i never spent less than rm20 per week. last time in college, i could save some money in drawers. Now, I hv to dig my little glass jar for coins. poor thing.

I am not da kind who can spend big (plus, not like i have the asset to spend.). But I do spend big when necessary, i.e : Shopping! :)
But daily expenditure...sigh. Mum :" Your uni already so costly..some more you still want to spend like I can print bank notes?" Ya mum, I do hope you can print bank notes, maybe in my dream.heheheeehehe

One of my secondary schoolmate- Kok Loong is currently enrolled himself to NTU. One of the genius place in Asia. In case you asking who is him :

Grey shirt guy. More photos on his facebook album. terima kasih.

Had human physiology quiz today. Kononnya quiz, but make all of us go nuts with notes. Sleep with it, eat with it, might accidentally rip some pages and .. anyway, i think it should be name as TEST.
the name it's carrying doesn't make it less important! is 20 % for the module. @#$%!next time whenever you see 'Fun Quizzes', beware, it might asking questions as it is a FUN TEST.

Next week : Principle of Human Nutrition Test 2. and have to read Vitamins.
Correction on last few post : Vitamin D not from the UV, UV is a source for some 7-dehydroxycholesterol that live in our skin for further reaction then until Kidney, we only get our own Vit.D. (correct me if i am wrong)

Things to do :
1. PHN Test 2
2. General Chem Periodic Table Poster
3. Organic Chem Test
4. Statistic Test
5. ..maybe general chem test. can't actually remember how many test we suppose to face before EOS.

Duh. Life isn't sweet.

那种感觉

2010-08-20T09:36:00.001+08:00

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛，才学会飞行。
王力宏的歌，总会那样简单却紧紧地俘虏了我的心。

每一字和每一句，那么刚好就到位。
说一针见血就有点可怕，他的歌多数会给人有感觉。
很久以前的‘永远的第一天’是让我听了会掉眼泪的。
那时候也不知道眼泪掉下来的原因是什么。
其实很少歌能够让我第一句和第一个旋律就会爱上。

现在我念书的地方，太多有钱人了。
我总觉得会透不过气。
哈！突然转话题转心情很惊讶吧。
我怕再继续写我就会心情下降。

最近天气不好，有我的面子书大概会知道我的房间变水帘洞了。
当下很大雨，大到像天空的水槽破了一个大洞，雨下倾盆……
我的房间就变花果山的水帘洞。

那种感觉好像‘屋漏偏逢连夜雨’。我想到的第一句就是这样的形容词。

当你看见美丽的彩虹，心情会变得突然快乐起来。
再怎么糟糕的事情，彩虹的出现仿佛就是一种快乐药剂。
注射入我们的静脉，让愉快在我们的身体里奔跑。

两个彩虹真的是对方的镜子，就像朋友一样。
不离不弃，直到一方消失为止。
感慨美丽的事务总是很短暂。
我们不能没有朋友，就像彩虹的形成都要靠水和阳光。

乱乱的心情，希望不要再变糟了。
等下不要下雨了拜托！！！

-如果这就是爱情，本来就不公平。-

2010-07-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

A new life.

in a totally new environment, competitive, hardly feel any vitamin D from UV.

with some bio samples. (this photo captured at nightime.)fascinating.

Cafe/Canteen/Makan Place or whatever you want to call it.crowded sometimes, depends on your luck sometimes.

15 minutes break between classes.

outside the auditorium.

Yes, I am currently attending to this university. Any comment? it's freezing. I can't find any better words to describe it, can't use 'Cold', because it's already beyond it. The Dean said the air-cond system is central, means only 1 temperature.Pray that won't rain, will make the whole building look almost like Genting's snowworld."Invest on a good sweather or jacket"-the Dean.

and now is the 2nd week, 14 days, 4 days of raining, 2 days of heavy downpour.

I bet someone will say :" bet'ya miss ur holiday already?!"

"Nope. at least not yet.Haha"

Last time when i was study at TARC, everywhere is trees, grass, mosquitoes, wind breeze,sweat, monkeys. We complained about the heat.sweat,low air-cond.

These are the stuff that I start missing now.

Here no trees, grass, no mosquitoes(amazing), wind breeze,sweat, and don't even mention a monkey. I can't even spot a bird! Some of my coursemates started to fall sick. Most of the hours in a day, we spent under the freezer lecture theater.

well, at least the food here not that bad. :)

and

Prof Fatimah is nice!

谢谢你的美好

2010-07-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

现在才发现，你的笑容真的能够把想忘记你的念头打消了。

那么一刹那。

你让我重新对你注入感觉。

你在车子里，摇下车窗，微笑着。

当我认识你的日子久了，就觉得你的人为其实没什么，很好。但就爱把尼古丁和其他废物化学吸进肺里。

我以为那一天以后，我见你的机会就会更少。那更好。
你跟我说话的时候不小心用词不当，你会道歉。
你再怎么心情不好，对着别人都会笑着，从来不真正的发脾气。除非那个人把你惹毛了。
一切，在不经意之下，默默地留在我的脑海里。
我们是朋友。这句话我每天都提醒自己，只怪我太容易喜欢人。说好听的就是我是感性，难听的就是花痴。
我对你的了解不多，也不知道你喜欢什么，不喜欢什么。
也不懂你家里多少人，多少条狗。

只知道你并不是我想象中的你。

未来的日子，我要好好学习，再一次把你从记忆里抹去。

黄金岁月后来就变成…

2010-06-29T13:42:00.000+08:00

八时三十分。
我倚在红色塑胶椅子，不停四处张望着。

眼前不远处两盏白灯笼，‘简门颜氏’和‘七十有六’。
这是我一个月以内出席的第二场丧礼，2个月以来的不知道第几件‘某人去世了’的新闻。

只能感到一丝丝的难过。不是因为他们都是我认识的人，而是感慨生命真的可以结束得那么突然。

[嘿！你不是陈XX吗？]一个干巴巴的右手伸出来，我身边的另一个皱巴巴的右手接了过去。

[对呀对呀！你是王XX！] 显然是一个‘老朋友相见’的戏码。我坐在两老的中间，刚刚在想起人生怎么那么短暂的无聊事，所有都被接下来的对白给扫走了。

排开感慨地感觉，两老的对白让我想大笑了。不行，这种地方得严肃，忍着点。

[退休多少年啦？]王老问。
[二十一年咯。]陈老说。
[我也是二十年了。]王老答。

[你最近有看到黄玉华吗？]王老问道。
[没有。你有遇到她咩？]
[有，那天我在医院拿药，她在我隔壁，看我看久了就问我是不是某某人。我就说是咯。你知道吗？1953年我毕业以后就没有看到她了。]

原来中学老朋友啊。

[Eh,前几年我还在‘半岛’遇到她，有点不认得。]注：‘半岛’是一间现在已被荒废的大厦。原身是旺得要命。

[酱那个刘XX呢？你还有看到他吗？]陈老想起谁，问了一下。我被夹在中间，被迫要把他们之间的对白都听下去。

[早都走了咯！] 走了？该不会去了吧？
[噢。酱那个戴眼镜家里卖杂货那个女的？neh...数学很不错一下的。]
[那个也早都去了咯。十多年了。]

沉默了2秒。

[我们班现在剩下的就我咯，你还有住在Pilah的吴XX跟其他的几个。]
[对呀，人老了就很多病痛咯。什么事都会发生。]陈老说。
[Eh，还有那个爸爸修脚车的？哎呀……不记得名字了，有点胖胖的啊。]他想起什么再问了。

[那个啊！去了几十年咯！]几十年？！那不就英年早逝了？
[还有那个家里开咖啡店的啊，也是前阵子去了。]王老接着说。
[是咩？不过我很久没有去他的店喝了。]陈老没有惊讶的样子。
[不过他的店收了很久一下。]

接下来他们的对白就是再讨论到底‘岁月催人老，谁去谁留’……

我们现在问的都是‘你在哪里读书？’‘什么大学？’……
迟一点应该会开始问‘喂，听讲那个XXX结婚了咯！想不到咯！’

原来五十年后的我们，会慢慢问起这种问题。

啧啧！不寒而栗啊。

以上的对白的确发生过，任何人物和名字都是纯属虚构，如有雷同，请谅解。

☼ to Penang with ♥ - № 1

2010-06-25T20:35:00.001+08:00

I received her text regarding the confirmation about the Penang Trip on 6pm , Sunday ( 20/06/2010 ). And we will off to Penang the next day morning.

Consider the flash one.

and is about the 2 best friends went to Penang and carving for foods.

and we reach Tanjung Malim at 11.05am. I wasn't know Tanjung Malim belongs to Perak until her friend said so! LOL. my geography knowledge is failed!

Morning view at Penang. near Gurney Plaza. Morning sunshine! :)

2 super-friendly-tour guide. They really spent their precious holidays and driving us here and there. Thanks! Emily (correct me if i am wrong) and Uron!Nice to know u guys too.

ahem, anyway, back to the trip members. 3 penangkia, 1 tanjung malim, 2 kl, and 1 ..i dunno from where. sorry. 5 is chemical engineering, 1 is soon-to-going for master in Mech. eng...and me, the only one who will study biology-related. And they make fun of it. haha.

is a new place! Spice garden. at first I thought it will be a place like got chilies hanging around.. kunyit, cinnamon, and others spices lying around on the floor for you to pick up.

and....the truth is not.

apparently..all the spices are in 'raw style',means all the greens you see in the garden might be medical usage, or the 'original look' of cinnamons, kunyit, gingers...

we all can't tell which is which,even they have a small board infront of the plant.I mean if you really want to know more about spices, ask for a guide. He can explain all of it damn well. 7 of us just buzzing around.

Bumped into some international school kids, they having study-trip. I mean literally, not like us.

in normal Malaysia's schools, 'Study trip' can be Genting visit.

their study trip come with a hand outs for each of the students, teacher will guide them to answer questions regarding to spices. I mean they really can learn things! extra knowledges.Good for them to know the differences between Ginger flowers and Water Lily. :D

That's the only thing that Engineering students will pay attentions to. :)

Big Swing + 'Happy Couple' hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ☺ (joking!)

Chen yee's coursemate- Ernest. who drove us from Tanjung Malim to penang, and from Penang bck to T.M. Thanks.

Lunch at Kochabi Taiwan. Funny huh? go Penang eat taiwan food! haha.But is awesome.

Inner decorations + food. nice. thumbs up ♥

Heyhey. thought we will visit Kek Lok Si, Penang Hill and others 'typical tourist interest' right?Nope. we actually went to places that bus wont stop for it.

4 Statue infront of Mahkamah Majistret. it is so nice and the night street view of Penang is so peaceful.

I have a thing about Penang's Victoria-English-Europe or any thing look so europe-ish. this is infront of the Speaker's Square. Do KL have this kind of Square??

Penang have a lot of different things compare to KL. except that the fact that part of them are under UNESCO.They have super lots of old buildings (which is kinda my things too)

See.

where i stopped?oh...ya. back to the night.this dude is trying to 'destroy' the parking-payment-machine. He basically ~~tried to touch~~ touched anything he saw along the road side (non-living things)

actually, he's just acting with the 'hunchback'-ed machine.

More to be updated. Have to shrink those photos to smaller size because here will take Forever to upload for big size photos.

ta-ta.

我回来了

2010-06-17T16:12:00.000+08:00

很久都没有带着这种心情blog了。
郁闷？开心？思念？什么屁都有。

王力宏的“你不在”真的有本事让我听了都会揪着心，感觉有点酸酸了。
不管当下是什么心情，但总会变得很难过，好像不见了什么。

工作了3个月半，终于可以松下来。
可以变得放肆，不管别人，只顾自己。
也不必为了一大堆文件烦恼。
虽然有人说我经不起考验和压力，我认了。我根本不适合关在办公室里，每天deal的就是电脑和文件。
我喜欢跟人沟通，毕竟有机会发言。

别在怀疑，我的文法的确退步了很多很多。整整半年，我没在方块字里打转。
那种像以前拼出来看了读了会鼻酸的句子很文章，都渐渐的离开了。

时过境迁，人和事物都不一样了。
再怎么说，人是会变的，说什么江山易改本性难移的屁话，根本不管用。
好像你认识了很久的人，突然变了，当然接受不了。

我有很多感觉堆积起来在心里，却无法用文字表达。
好像你想干什么，却做不到。
类似类似。

那天玩了一个测验，说B型狮子座。
我一向来都不太相信，因为相信的话就是任由那堆文字摆布。本来没有的都傻傻地相信。
结果测验很准。
“狮子座B型女看似坚强，很有领导能力，其实认真注意，她害怕孤独一个人……”

对。我喜欢lead，可是我怕被丢下来一个人没有朋友那种感觉，恶心。
可是我又不是很典型的，我喜欢lead,却不太喜欢负起很重大的责任，也许害怕失败而不敢向前。
因为失败的感觉很没脸，好像有些女孩没化妆出不了门那样。

7月26日凌晨0015分的B型狮子座女孩大概都是这样子的。
而且我没化妆出门还不带墨镜。

乘还没进入另一个墓碑里程碑时，得找些事打发自己。

List to do.

2010-06-04T21:07:00.000+08:00

It's quite a long time i didn't update this death blog.
So i decide to write something. at least make it like a update of my recent days.

I don't know for how long that nobody is viewing here,bcz my nuffnang bill still running down, and i need money.

for what?
I don't know. But if you asked me few weeks back, i will say "I need them for my trip".
and the trip thing nw is 3rd time enter the fail list.
not 100 % fail, but most of the chances.
of course I felf dissapointed...Mostly.and I felt stupid bcz i still throw so much hopes in, and yet , I didn't reach the dream.

I don't deserve it? Maybe.
For many years, I listed down the place I want to visit before I married or tied to something that I can't runway from.

1. Taiwan
2. Hong Kong
3. Hawaii
4. Guam
5. Bali
6. London/United Kingdom
7. Melbourne
8. France
9. Italy
10. Vienna
11. Venice
12. New York/Boston/ Seattle/ Washington D.C

and none of this ever come true.

Even my friends also get boring because I keep saying that I want to go Pulau Redang.
and till nw, nothing happened.
I keep ask my friend who work at travel agency for price quotations,
and till now, he also get fed up, because he didn't earn a single cent from me. haha.
I think I'll just stay at home and pretend I am in somewhere else.

I need a new phone. Still hunting for the right one.
For me handphone is not just a HP that simple, it has to be something I fall in love at the first sight and forever.

watched Valentine's Day online.
wait for Dear John!

PackedWeekends.

2010-05-16T22:36:00.001+08:00

Guess this will be the last time that we gather around. Dicky going to HK soon, dear piang going to kampar. but actually the rest of us still here. hahahahaha.

at SushiZanmai. leng lui kah yan and lim dick. Our group cant get any better if without them. ♥

hock lai's Sukiyaki. Looks yuuumm.

Piang and me.

chilled at Gelato Fruity. ordered Starfruit ice-cream. wished i had a bigger stomach to fit them in perfectly.oh, is Hock Lai with me btw.

☼day.

lepak at Secret Recipie with darlings.planning on something big with chen yee. Hope the things will go on smoothly!

spotted. A cute little girl. I zoomed my camera, so scare if her parents yelled and sue me for privacy. But cute things must share right?! haha.

Jie yan joined us 1.5 hours later. ..

she was trying to look at the camera lens when I snapped her 'driving-look'. Gurl! you gotta pay attention to front instead of my camera! because u are driving wei. dangerous. think she forgot about the fact that she was driving that time.

went to AEON bdr mahkota cheras. got a lot of sub-shops.Not bad though, before that i heard it was SMALLER than cheras selatan one, but the truth is, they got more shops than cheras selatan lor..the shops design is different.. they got smaller hallway but more shops. look much YOUNGER.most of the shops are in mid class line. affordable i said.

and i bought myself a gift.

ta-da!

no photoshop stuff going on, cant do dreamy stars around it. =(

i.n.a.b.f (ada gambar! 1 only.)

2010-05-09T10:37:00.001+08:00

Ma last post was 2 weeks ago. So sorry.

Not feeling update anything but tried to.

I was busying eating last week.

Had simple celebration of dad's birthday last thursday.

Although he already reach 60, he still can be a humourous dad.

You can see how humourous he is.

yesterday i spent whole afternoon at my friend's house, Chen Yee's.
we doing nothing besides lying on her bed and nintendo ds-ing.
she is in holiday now, anyone wants to date her, feel free to call me!haha

Seriously i hv to get myself a new phone. new new phone.

still uncertain with my choices.

some said iphone, before that i think of blackberry, then yesterday ma fren suggested me buying his htc. which is quite new and he thinking change to the latest model. i hope i can be this rich.

now the weather showing 'big-down-pour-is-on-da-way'..and all the clothes not dried yet! shit lar.

May is almost reach its half! omg! how the time can be this fast!
and today is mothers day plus happy birthday to dad.
next week shall be june. yesh!

next next week piang will off to kampar. i heard that is beautiful.
and i wil be here! still around KL.haha. consider still staying at home because the farest distance i went for studies was Setapak. haha....nex will be in bkt.jalil. still near.unlike my frens, they all travelled from around msia to kl for further studies, guess i am kinda lucky compare to them.

photo of da day.

Echoes of the Rainbow

2010-04-21T20:02:00.000+08:00

I watched this movie last Saturday. A day before the HK film award (correct me if i wrong).
and this movie won 4 prizes.

This is the movie:

i tried to find the better poster.

and this is the only movie that i watched without google-ing first about the plots and synopsis.You know what my first thought about this movie? 神偷(shen2 tou1) means 'super geng thief' in chinese. I thought Ng Kwan Yu is a kind of thief like 'Hak Mui Guai' 黑玫瑰back in 60's.Stealling rich people pocket to help the needy.

This movie is nothing about STEALLING STUFF.

is about a simple family.although their life is tough, but they stand together no matter what happen.

Did I mention about the leehom-look-alike actor?

well, maybe this photo not so look alike. In da movie, in some scene , he did look like Lee Hom. At first me and my friend thought Lee Hom was starring in this movie.don't get suprised, his name is Aarif.Ya, he sing the theme song for the movie 'Echoes of the Rainbow' in english version and the chinese version that won the Best Original Soundtrack that day.

da story line of this movie is quite interesting. Something new, fresh to us. No police-police, no samseng, no weird weird story, no future cops. all just about one family.Well, sometimes simple things can be that easy to let almost the whole cinema cried.

I almost burst my tears off at some point. Not like others in the room, they pretend coughing during the sad scene just to cover their 'sobbing-sound'.

So, i think that's all. This is quite an interesting movie. just buy your ticket and watch the movie.

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Bon Appetit

2010-04-08T19:43:00.001+08:00

Guten Tag! I learnt this last week.It means 'Hello' in German.
Went for Formula 1 duty last saturday, came back with souvenirs. One badge from German.
He is kind enough to distribute for 5 of us.
and I get the nice one.=D

sorry for the blur pic. Can't get it focus right.=( bad skills.

Anyway, skip to the next day dated 4/4/2010.

his birthday. ♥

Papa is kind enough to bring us for Hi-Tea.(only when he have cupons)=D But still a good news! get to eat,eat,eat...and get fat.

So, we ended up here: Grand Dorsett Subang.

Bon Appetit! seems we're so lucky to taste Italian foods.

and that day was Easter Day.Got some funny little games for kids.Treasure hunt for eggs..coloring& drawing contest..etc.

I love this photo.They just look like having some interviews.hahahahah

Papa first photo on this blog! (i think so.)

Sissy's plate. is her 2nd plate that full of chocolate cakes! Gila betul. I can't even finish my plate because I felt like throwing up after I ate the big portion of chocolate cake.

I didn't took alot of photos of foods. The manager is starring to me when I took photo of the place and surroundings.and to Piang: That manager looks like ah Loh! haha. I so scare he come and lecture me chemistry.

The buffdae boy with mum. My mum was burst into a big laugh after the click.When the buffdae boy mispronounce 'dessert' to 'desert' and 'mousse' to 'mosque'. Actually I can't differentiate 100%-confidently about the dessert and desert.=D

The hotel put two Lotus car in their lobby due to F1 season. Their piano lounge having F1 high-tea to watch the race live at there.

The clown for the Easter Day games. He having his lunch after his job.

After that, we went to Sunway Pyramid for the FIRST TIME!( well, at least the first time for me) Don't laugh and judging, because my dad think sunway pyramid is too far and he is lazy to drive.

anyway, not much time to shop and no mood to shop too. Maybe other days la, i will go sapu-sapu.heehee.

okay, that's all for today! Danke!(thanks in german)

April ain't Foolish

2010-04-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

Sorry that i didn't update this dusty blog for so many days (if anyone still reading.)
Life still da same, working everyday.and alternative saturdays.
Started to missed holidays.When i can get my ass off the bed whenever i want to.

Working as an admin staff is kinda.....ermmm...nevermind.
I prefer job that can communicate a lot and walk around, i.e. teacher.
Maybe hunt for tutor job after June. I can teach piano, siapa mau?

April's fool was yesterday.
and i didn't get pranked seriously. 'Seriously' serious, like someone told you ur house is on fire.
Don't mess with friends that have tons of crazy ideas.

when you love someone , 'ignore the colour' they said.
maybe some of you will say ' Bullshit'..but i think is quite true.
when you see everything in same colour, you will never felt the differences at all.

Distance kept relationship aside.
not just boyfrengirlfren thing, friendship too.
when he/she at another side of the country, you can't even remembered that he/she was your truly-die-hard best friend.Things changed, people changed. He/she met new friends, somehow high school sweetheart/besties will become histroy.

gonna hit the race tracks tomorrow.hope the weather will be just nice.no raining and no super hot sun.

no piccie today. =D wish ya'll happy weekend !

Love World Love Sloggi

2010-03-25T18:32:00.001+08:00

I L♥VE ...:

beach. I just love the blue.

enjoy happy time with friends.They are ingredient of my life.

being supportive to preserve our Nature home.

make new friends! learn more about different cultures.Go for camping always make new friends and learn a lot about stuff that i don't know.

i love my mum.Without her, I am nothing.

greens. They help us to maintain the ecosystem.'Natural air filter'.

Starbucks.Good ol' days with sisters.

we have been educated since 6-year-old, to love the Earth, our Mother Nature. everything in photos that i took are belong to Her, no matter they are living things or not. We born and live on this Earth. So, is our responsibility to take good care of the environment. We all are depending on her.

Now we not only say no to plastic bags, and we can have eco-friendly lingeries! At first, i thought eco-friendly lingeries are made of paper-like materials.

NO.Sloggi now having their Love World Love Sloggi 2010 collection. This series made of eco-friendly material that reproduce from recycled plastic bottles. =)

Love World Love Sloggi series offering great comfort and superb fit for all-day.We can be sexy, fabulous all day long and being environmental friendly at the same time!

So, don't mess with Mother Nature because you won't know when She will get angry and fight back!Do recycle,buy eco lingeries!

go~~Sloggi!♥

Ugly 'Betteeth'

2010-03-20T19:17:00.001+08:00

I went to dentist yesterday.
prepare urself because this post content 2 photos of ma mouth.with braces.

this is before additional rubber band that will add in. Braces isn't fun, and took me alot of time to consider about it.Finally i did it 2 years ago, braces wtill with me now.and i hope they will off from my mouth latest by this JUNE. Sissy have it last year and she already almost done with them.WTF!

ignore wet hairs, just finished bathing.

okay, back to topic.I thought 2 rubber bands already 'ma fan' enough for me to tie them up every morning.Yesterday, the dentist add 5 more rubber bands, results as follow ( see bellow photo at your own risk.)

I can't roll my tongue out! and eat! and talk properly. and this is fucking pain. Scales 8 on 1-10. WARRHHHHHHHH~~~the worst part is,I have to take them off to eat, tied them back later....take them off to brush, tied them back later...and sleep in pain.

So, this is a good advice for who still think of having braces. You must strong enough to cope the pain and patient enough to let people call you -'Ugly Betty'. and brave enough like me,post the photo online like nobody business.

People always think braces is pain. the metal is not pain when they are attached on ur teeth, the pain is when your teeth start mobilising around to arrange themselves properly. If you didn't feel any pain, means your teeth no need do braces because they are fixed in place.

and people who tell you: " Not pain at all lar! where got..." they lied, or maybe braces didn't work out with them..=D

I appologise to whom i told them that wearing braces are not pain at all.

No title.

2010-03-17T18:48:00.001+08:00

The damn line is fixed! and paid RM150.
wtf. that was a high cost for one fking phone wire.if the line down again, i will not know what to do.

okayyy...emm. busy with work currently and x sure when this will end.but maybe will end mid June.
and i just found out my grandma got one stepmother.very nice one.unlike snow white's stepmom with the bloody red apple.

I am now waiting for a paper that will decide my life.MUET registeration slip!can you just arrive to my house earlier so that i can declare my application?! what the hell.

Sorry folks, i have nothing to talk about now wor.
if i find something interesting will post it la, okay? since my line now is very good.=) hope it will be good for 100 years,since i won't be around that time and no need to worry about that somemore.

bonus photo of the day.ma favourite:

Bon Voyage

2010-03-06T16:29:00.001+08:00

At some point, we've grown up. Into more mature and independent person. we get to decide what we going to do next in our life, and handle our life by ourselves. Elder people says, 'don't mess with the life and God because our life is the most fragile thing that we may ever get.'

So, there are two good girls in my life are going to leave this land soon. Have a safe journey and send me postcard since i having the world's sux-est line.

I always said to myself, someday i could have this chance like them, visit a strange place and explore her beauty.immerse into strangers' life and try to learn new things.

Girl A is 4 years elder than me but she have exactly a young heart, you cant tell her real age.Oopps..and i just did.She won't mind btw. quite surprising me when she told me she gonna visit NZ soon. and she resigned from her current job, and i bet her boss sure miss her very much because she can be the best employee the boss ever have.

She applied her visa, resigned from her job and just going to chaoz like that.JUST LIKE THAT!i will miss you a lot a lot LCC, don't forget my postcard and i wonder how u goin to send me one because u didn't ask for my house address also! ahahahaha.="(

Girl L is same age with me and she will be visiting the big land, so hope she have everything packed up well. I will miss you too.

Why everybody is leaving?

but, 'Momma said life is just like a box of chocolate, you won't know what you gonna get..'.

Bon Voyage.

2010-03-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

no new upcoming post unless my line is really been fixed! SUXXX max.

p/s: btw, i am working now. is an office job. and i finally know 'kiv' means what. ="|

CNY 2010

2010-02-22T12:38:00.000+08:00

today is the 9th day of Chinese New Year.
sorry for the delayed post.so this would be zap ba lang post.everything during last week.=D
No Valentine's-related post.

visited grandma house. Mum's mum house.Day 2

All of us.We all sweating during this photo session because the weather is freaking hot.

during lunch time.This table is filled with elders.Cantonese people take it seriously.Kids one side, Adult one side.and i consider Kids categories.

Cousins from Singapore.

Makan-makan. everybody is finding their seats.

Yums.

Cousins.

Relaxing after lunch.

Me and Jun Jie.Mad cute.I think he fit my bag very well.=D

That's all for day 2.

Day 4- FGS Dong Zen Temple

is crowded crazy.

A peaceful place.

That's all for last week. I went back to grandma house again last saturday for Lou Sang.Everything in the photos are same as day 2. So i am not uploading photos.

I have a long list of movie to watch.But i didn't watch any of them.
Wish everyone have a GRRRRReat year of Tiger and i will cross my fingers for those will claim their STPM result this Thursday.All the best.

2010-02-18T21:40:00.003+08:00

DUE TO UNSTABLE CONNECTION TO INTERNET, THIS BLOG WILL NOT BE UPDATED UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE. PLEASE DON'T LEAVE THE SEATS, STAY TUNE AND

I WILL BE BACK!

Grrrrrrrr-the year and the love

2010-02-13T14:45:00.000+08:00

Have to rush this post before lunch. Yes, i still not taken my lunch.The reunion lunch.

As the weather is freaking hot these few days, and i decided to wash all the curtains.Not all but some of them.They could do the rest.(Sissy and fella)

ta-da.The sun is bright and shiny.I thought of using the fried pan to do some experiment outside.But it was too hot to be conduct.

I adore shiny afternoon, but mostly when i happened to be at the beach.Not at a house, with no air-conditioning and a 14-year-old fan.

somehow they look just like wedding veil.the super giant wedding veil, sissy said so.

and thats all for today, thankiu very much. and wish everyone have a ~~prospurus~~ ~~phosphorus~~ wonderful Chinese New Year.

Less words, more photos/pics.Simplicity is the theme.

Suerte

2010-02-08T19:50:00.000+08:00

I have been job-free for 13 days.and i still not found any yet.I have been looking lots of excuses about job hunting,or maybe i just simply don't feel like working anymore....till JULY. and this is not right.

okay, anyone who have know any job vacancies just contact me,okay?

and i just ate 2 potatoes for snacks.Fried potato chips made by my own.and i don't count for calories whatsoever..and the amount of it is way much more that i could imagine.=D

Sometimes, there is something happened and you can't explain why. Maybe you know, and you can't explain it properly; or maybe you don't know anything about it. i didn't mean to eat 2 of them, with hot-boiled oil deep fried..and something just make me ate it.

Or sometimes, you just know and you don't want to explain about it. In a relationship, people can't figure it out why it ends, it just did.

Anyway, this post is craping post.or some updates about myself. so the post title means nothing.Everyday at home, cleaning dust and deco house for CNY.actually, i am not really looking forward about the CNY except those red shiny angpaos that will fill my bank account.

and looking forward about the trip. Sun and beach!

Battlefield Diary 3: The Fin

2010-01-29T12:35:00.000+08:00

erm.this series named 'Battlefield Diaries', it should be update daily..and i didn't.
i have tons of work to do since this is just 4th week of school.
and did i mention about the class? the 6J.they will be the last bunch of kids u ever want to mess with.

okay.this suppose to be post out @ 27/1/2010, and due to my unbelievable lazy sickness,postponed till today.

i reached this school @ 6.15am.and is fking early.see? so dark.

these 'tanglung' are the school deco for coming CNY.looks so temple-ish.

they all are 1st year student.they are cute.x1

okay.don't get wrong, i didn't teach this class.i just sneaked in before the bell rings and snapped a quick shot. They still finding the way to fit in the new environment.and they all look so stunned when i stepped in and took their photos.

They look cute(x2), aren't they?=D you guys know why i keep posting cute(x3) little people photos? because will let your day lighted up.

this is my all time fav, they really..gosh.CUTE(x4). when i asked them to let me take their photo,they immediately arranged themselves.So efficient.and they all smile just in one type.Maybe we all did, learning how to pose in front of the camera when we still 7.see? they posing without 'V' signs.

when they are 12, this is the photo they will look like.Posing like mad, try to steal the perfect spot in front of the camera. This is the ~~cute~~ mad class i have been talked about.And I use more time to take this THE ONLY ONE photo of them. They can't even arranged themselves properly like those 1st year students did.So not effecient.Blame yourselves folks, not discipline enough to earn more photos!

We did learn alot in school, right? =D

and when we grow older, we start not posing a lot of signs anymore.WHY a?now we even use self-snapped photos.

sorry for not having 'cute' words for you'all, 6J.and sorry to 5N, i didn't manage to get a photo from you all, and is really a waste.because this 5N class got super lots of leng luis! they look so pretty when they are 11.I will try to get one before they graduate.stay tuned!

*******

Bonus photo of the day.

this fella thought McD will pay him for this.

p/s:jobless now.

彩虹的尽头-是快乐

2010-01-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

昨天读过报纸，哭了。
第一次，看着报纸会默默拭泪。

在此，希望在天国的各位钟灵的同学们，要快乐。

之前看着报纸登上一张张破烂废墟的照片，地震的新闻已经让报纸看起来悲哀了。
那天却看见一片蓝海，一个码头，一个难过的妈妈在哭着。

隔着那么远，我却为他们感到难过。
看着报纸的新闻，鼻子酸酸的。

我不喜欢跟溺水有关的新闻。看过，无法忘记那天晚上。眼泪和雨水。那种复杂心情的交接点，跟那以前很像。

以前，他发生事情时我也忍耐着眼泪，就算快模糊了视线，我也不要让它掉下来。
因为那时候，她最需要的不是我的眼泪。第一次，我妈迫切地需要我长大。

我却慌了而忘了拍一拍她肩膀。我不敢，不喜欢。不像道德课本教的，要给予安慰和拥抱。
安慰从来不是我的范围，因为我总会被拖着一起哭。我选择站在远远的，看不见，听不到。不是残忍，不是无情，是害怕自己接受不了。到头来，懦弱控制了我。

每次会突然惊醒，害怕他就这样走了，总要看见他胖胖的肚腩起伏着，才安心。
害怕他嚷痛，因为我也会痛。

很多时候，在朋友面前装着很坚强很屹立不倒。
其实很多时候，背后的我其实根本是株含羞草。
害怕，就把叶子合上，保护自己。

我当不了遇风不倒的小草，要坚强，我还得问自己，那二字怎么写。

Battlefield Diary 2

2010-01-11T16:34:00.002+08:00

They don't respect me. and they don't respect themselves either.
I spent times on yelling than teaching. u can imagine how worst could it be.
i yelled every half minutes. and somehow i decided not to yell anymore.
cz i can't. i definately losing my voice gradually and this only 2nd week of term.
hope my throat will be okay when i go out for karaoke singing.

besides of these, i was bored.
i reached school early. means early like 6.00am.
and i reached home 4.00pm.
i cant even remember last night dream.
cz my brain is filled with their names and who-didn't-pay-their-fees stuffs like that.

people with no job( no offence) or still studying, they will thought Monday will be a whole fresh week.
like fresh water fish.perhaps just dead.
for me, Monday now will be the circulations.another yelling week, another week that i feel so exhausted.
in chinese we call 恶性循环. zehzehzeh, not good.

I am okay when they talk loudly.Is not like i am gonna lose anything. except my voice.
they going to learn sloooow like grandma snail with tongkat.
and i am happily receiving my pay cheque 2 weeks later.

BLEK.take that, ya'll little monsters!!

Battlefield Diary 1

2010-01-06T20:40:00.001+08:00

today is 3rd day of work and i felt like i worked for 3 years.

actually i did a draft on this post on the first day.

i work as 'Guru Ganti'. something like a substitute.when a teacher absent for less than 28 days, that's the time when guru ganti is needed for.

emmm..where should i start?

folks, say 'hai' to 6J.

1st rule, don't trust those chubby cute faces.they look cute but they act so-not-cute.talkative,talkative and talkative!

this is the most ridiculous class i ever seen.half of it are in PINK.

the school is crowded with HUMANS.or i shall say, little humans. sometimes they can make you laugh, but sometimes they can make your blood pressure rise.

i learnt a lot, and i truly understand being a teacher is not always the 'best job ever'. is tiring and killing. students make you yell, and they can't shut their mouth for one second. they just can't.

see? crowded gila. this is 1st day of school.

can't think of any words to describe my days for now, let's photos do the talking. you all shall understand. and sorry i didn't took my 'job wear looking' photo because i look elder than my age.=(

need starbucks desperately. =/

Hay-Pee-Niu-Yer!

2010-01-01T17:25:00.000+08:00

erm.since this is the 1st post of 2010.actually i dont have a real theme to write about.
so i think i just do a simple summary of 2009.

i think i have the most 'not excited' countdown yesterday.
and we didnt even watched those countdown concert.
2010 came in our laughs and some ~~dirty~~ little secrets.

em. my 2009 was not colorful as others but i had a steady year.
didn't manage to get a boyfriend but i have a group of amazing friends.
classmates of SN9H, thanks for the memories.

my year 2009 was kinda 'grey-ish' if compare to 2008.
i failed my grade 8 piano exam.again.
i failed my advanced first aid.
i get a donkey for X subject of AS.which is unexpected.and i retake it last november.hopefully i can get something better than donkey.

i just spilled coffee on my shirt.damn.don't blog with coffee.is not romantic at all.

i think that's all for my year 2009. still not yet listed down any new year resolutions.
ohh.got one, hopefully trip to Redang will come true.

Happy New Year 2010!
and yesterday when i wish my friends 'Happy New Year' in chinese and they laughed.they said 'Xin Nian Kuai Le' suppose to say during Chinese new Year.LOL. any differences?

'..is mucus.'

2009-12-24T11:00:00.000+08:00

I suppose most of us never turn our back to watch cartoon again.
since they called fairytale ain't real.and is so KIDDY+CHILDISH.
well, most of the time, i live in the real world.means no fairytale or watsoever.
but meanwhile, a small part of myself,i always want to believe there is a small world we never knew.just like Pandora or Far Far Away kingdom.

Mum said 'the Princess and the Frog' are made for kids.ma, is rated general.so i definately can watch.watched this movie yesterday, and tricked by the seats plan.Diu.

everytime i watch movie, when deal with 'choosing the seats' issue, i always want to avoid being given row lesser than G(A-F).you will have serious neck problem after that.

yesterday, i was acting so smart and think every cinema of G** are the same.when we buy ticket,that girl show me the row C. and in a blink of eye, i said 'No.Saya mau J la.thankiu.'

'You sure?'she asked.

'Yup.' then i paid.so syok lor that time i think.when can u get seats at row J when is afternoon peak time.

1.45, after lunch at Boston HK restaurant, is time for movie.

walao! when i enter i shocked lor.

the arrangement of seats aint normal like i saw NORMALLY. when we enter,we have to find our seats from M-A.now, i found the seats arranged in A-M. WHICH MEANS~~ WHICH MEANS IF I TOOK THE C ROW I WILL BE WATCHING THE MOVIE WITH THE SEATS 3RD ROW COUNT FROM BEHIND.dude!is behind!

why la i pick J row.luckily still manage to watch the whole screen.*phew.

cant blame me.=D

Ne-Yo's Never Knew I Needed is not bad.

next in the row-Alvin and The Chipmunks2 :The Squeakquel

Falalala~lalalala.

2009-12-18T19:27:00.001+08:00

i thought the must-see is 2012.
turn out this is the must-see movie lor.

i tot Avatar is a movie about robot when i first heard about the name.dunno why hv that kind of idea.and sissy keep saying how amazing the trailer is.

so me, sissy and bro went to cinema for the 165 minutes movie.
James Cameron is awesome.he made all the living things in Avatar look REAL.like u can sense them truly exist in ur life..ehhem..maybe too over, ya.is not so computer-ish.not faking.

if i can have their hair how nice?
and we can dump all the internet connection we have now.

don't kiam for the wallet money, don't say NO TIME. this is an excuse.this movie is the last thing u ever want to miss it.

sorry about the small thumbnail size pic, i cant find any nicer due to the connection.

4.5 star la.

because there is a kid who screaming in the screening hall.cant blame her cz she only 3.blame her dad who brought her in.making noice and thats fcking annoying.

me,sissy and bro are kinda obsessed with the "Penguins of Madagascar" series.

since my telly dead few days ago,i am watching sorts of shows online.

i nvr hope for a full HD or high tech plasma or LED watsoever,just a brand new tv,okay? dad?hear me?

23 days to 2010.

harry potter next year!!

When 6 packs meet...er?

2009-12-04T18:51:00.001+08:00

Pheww..just back from 2 hours of movie. Guess what? i never expected i will walk into the cinema and watch New Moon.
no further explain is needed, everyone know New Moon, everyone know Stephenie Meyer. It's not just books and movies, it's a phenomena.

actually i am not a big fan of Twilight series(no offence).But i cant find a reason to hate it.well, is neutral i guess.=)

after this movie was lauched last month, Taylor gain lots of fans. ~~omg! the six packs!~~Taylor is only 17 and he act much more mature than his age. now i know why he could attract more attention than RP.~~because he doesn't have chocolate bars.~~no offence to his fans. i don't even remember what i did when i was 17, kidding around maybe.and he is transforming to animal in movie.yeng!

people do compare after the movie between Edward's and Jacob's. i asked my friends , 'who you'll choose base on the body?' 'of course Jacob lar! so obviously he got the REAL six packs.'

tons of movies are on when the calendar hits november and they are waiting in the list to fill my bore holidays!

P/S: my friend think Dr.Cullen is handsome-ier than his son.

updates.

2009-11-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

yea baby.i'm in holiday now. and still planning where to go.i mean 'to go on a trip'.
read so many shocking news online, especially the one about floating icebergs which now is heading to New Zealands. not just one, ~~few of them~~ hundreds of them. click here for further reading.

emm..we heard about 'global warming' from long time ago.we take that as a kind of 'small news'.[nah..global warming wor.how worst could it be?hotter earth lor.]
well, turns out we could have situations that worser than a hot globe.maybe we should visit Venice by now.
then, weather of the globe is turning weird. early snow before the winter. and u guys should have notice by now, flooding is everywhere.it not about monsoon season, is about rising of sea level. and sunlight is absence for many days in malaysia which should have 四季如夏.

people is having their holiday filled with trip.to penang, to hong kong, to australia..etc.
okay now why i still here blogging about my poor-no-trip-holidays?
because i have no money lor. i promised a friend 6 years ago in 2003 that i will visit her at Melbourne when 2006.guess what, i never get a flight to there since 2003 till now. sorry girl.
in 2007, i was 'planned' to visit taiwan in year end. and it never happened.

i cant just let all my so-called plans blow off, right? i should get one real trip.my mum said i still hv plenty of time to visit other countries,maybe after my graduation.why so rush now?sorry lor, i want go now. seriously, i am jealous about friends who can go for a trip during their holiday.

i miss this cat so much.although i m not a cat person.guess what happened to her? she was DUMPED in a box with her new born kittens because a crazy bitch who complained about her 'meowing'. i cant even heard the LRT sounds sometimes.she can hear cat meowing from 2nd floor? she is heartless.

i miss those days with you.♥

The Climb.The turning point.

2009-11-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

is not the lyrics of Miley's song. but this song bring mostly what i want to say.
i finished most of my papers today.not once at the time but the hard one ended today.

i thought chemistry paper 4 'how-hard-could-it-be?', i was wrong.
include everything i studied, it still not enough to score high marks.
my future is depend on it, and now i really screwed it up. not that i did BADLY or TERRIBLE, but deep down my heart, i feel this still not enough for me. i really feel that my tears is rolling down in my heart, not through my cheeks.

i made many mistakes,and all blame to no one but myself.
i am not typically A-list student, and i wonder how they can score A in every papers?
if i could get a C, i will feel thankful to GOD.the infinity of grateful.

if not, everything i planned and want for the future, will soon turn to ashes.

lazy post.*random

2009-10-03T23:52:00.012+08:00

while everyone are sitting infront of their study tables..
i went to the new-built Carrefour hypermarket with my mum.
and my mum regreted about it.
cz when 3 of us go anywhere with her, we will buy this and that. according to her, those are useless and nonsense thingy.[mostly are food]

i bought 2 books and one key-chainf.y.i, i bought the key chain cz it looks cute.harhar.
went back home.sat quietly in front of my table and doing my pure math past year papers.
binomial expansions are driving me crazy.
especially those attached with partial fractions.wtf

after god-knows-how-long, i started digging nonsense, cleaning up the table..konon-nya.try to looking for something suprising my life?
and i found this. A Card.

almost forgot about this.

opened it and i laughed. the big Ha-Ha. in case you wondering..

see those cracked 'humans'? is made of 'tanah liat' x sure about the name in english

although is a normal birthday card, but with those human thingy, make it so unusual. and the card became fragile.

notice the 2nd human on the right?*zoom.. zoom*

'he' loses half of 'his' face!

heehee. i feel this is funny and decided to blog about it.see? how boring i am.blogging about a card.

i received presents when i was younger.mostly are photo frames.

this is kinda special. 'fragile card'.

wish everyone happy-studying. and mooncake festival.f.y.i, tonight cant see the moon. =(

Life.Miracle.Death.Ends.

2009-09-19T22:21:00.002+08:00

I learned about life today.

life made when two gametes fused together and form the simplest group of cells.

life ends when the time has come.

life or death is a part of cycle. everyone will die eventually in the end. it's just the matter of time and the way.

peacefully, or tragically.

even with the pulse and breathing, but the brain has stop functioning.medically, you are nothing but a live corpse.

it happened when i was in the middle of my hospital duty. i think this will be one of the cases that i wont forget for the rest of my life.

we cant choose whether we want die in bed or die in car accident.
it's just the fate.

it's not just the TVB hong kong drama we watched. not the Grey's Anatomy.
it's reality.

i was shocked. my tears was dropping. theirs were flooding the whole emergency room.
cried for life.
cried for miracle.

ya. is just a part of the life.

36 days left.

2009-09-13T20:18:00.003+08:00

trial exam ends last wednesday. catched up a movie with the best friend at klcc.

nothing special.

except that the A2 exam is goin to come in 36 days? gees.
i just keep dreaming about the post-exam days.

everyone is so hardworking. past year papers is carried everywhere.

i jz realized sumthing on last friday-if u care about ur dignity, u won't get true friends.
what's friends for? is to help you realize who you really are. not to smile at you and say 'it's nice' even though u have the worst hairstyle that day.
friend should be telling you that- 'dude, ur hair look sucks today'.

you should be able to accept it cz they are the 'mirror' of your life.
not cover your ears and turn away from them.

people learn from mistakes (if you really admit about it)

so i guess i learnt a lesson.
haha.

let's get the exam-mood started~ woohooo!

Take a Break.

2009-08-25T17:25:00.008+08:00

today went midvalley with the best friend, piang.
no movie, just walk around, spent money around.

when we were at the ktm kajang, we thought of 'safety precautions' due to the flu.wear mask in the train. and we took off the mask when we enter the mall. shouldn't we wear it whole day? i know. but i think i gonna die before i kena the flu cz i feel like lacking of air.

the best friend. ♥

f.y.i, the fake house are one of the un-done hari raya decoration at the centre court.

when our stomach started to complain, we decided to have lunch at The Garden,a restaurant that we thought it would be there. and guess what, we walked for almost an hour to find a restaurant that DOESN'T EXIST at all. wtf

then we ended up eating KimGary's.

basically, nothing to talk about today.just take a break before the hard time comes.☺

i heard that Arthur's Day coming in Sept. i want to go! [mostly is impossible cz i dunno how to go. haha!]

pray for strength and believe in faith?

2009-08-11T12:05:00.004+08:00

as far as i remembered, learning biology is easier than chemistry.
but the truth always the opposite.
results shows my chemistry better.

mayb i should feel thankful to God.
guess what, i need to re-sit my biology. this time, 21 chapters all together and i hv to do pratical exam again.

now i hv to pray for strength. hope that i can study everything in 2 MONTHS.
my fren wonder how come i have the motivation to go for re-sit papers.
'well, u wont hesitate when you earn D for ur bio,u will do everything to earn something better.'

i told myself. no more failing papers in future. cz i only hv one more shot. one more chance to fix things right. if not, i will have nothing to move on.

wish i could go for holiday anytime from now. better to be an island..
white sand, crystal clear sea.

悼文

2009-08-08T17:17:00.004+08:00

这个部落格，很久都没真正呼吸过了。

我再也无法真的写出任何让人留下印象的文字。感觉好像患上脑闭塞的问题。因为，所有的事情都好象离我而去，我离文字越来越远了；我越来越不认识自己了。

也许在这个世界里，需要特别才能有人看见。
我就喜欢默默地站在某个角落，等别人看见。

我能做的，只是为这里注射一点点地营养剂，让她继续呼吸着。
不强，但是依然有心跳的。给她插管，我也必不得已。

因为我不能再把物体虚拟化，把句子美化，把情感幻化。我都做不到。
当一个人写不出让自己佩服的句子和文字，我想失败的，最终还是自己。
之前幻想过一大堆的故事和文章，统统都废掉。
是自己变得严格？还是过不了自己的那一关呢？

如果那天我觉得是时候了，我想会让她把管子拔掉，把仪器都停了。

P/S:我不在乎了。因为没人真正在乎过我到底在想什么。

幸福的味道1星巴克

2009-07-25T00:43:00.004+08:00

N年没喝星巴克。
老实说，我只喝过一次，还要是附属医院的那种。

这几天，味蕾缓缓地唤醒沉睡的记忆。
好想再尝一次那种感觉。

满满一杯的幸福感。虽然有点小贵，但是那种一杯在手，感觉[稳操胜卷]一样。

可能有些人连没事都来一杯，我可不行。
那是会让我束腹一个礼拜才能花费的。

星巴克在我印象和回忆，就是到处都找得到的东西。
可是会有种默然的熟悉感。
说不出来为什么。

就好像你经过一个地方，说不出来为什么，莫名的熟悉感就会浮现。
或者你看见一个人，说不出来为什么，他好像很眼熟。

有时候，你突然尝了一样东西，第一口进去：对！就是这个味道，在哪里或什么时候吃过，记不起。

特别想在雨天喝一杯。
星期天要下雨噢。

熟悉的陌生

2009-07-10T22:22:00.006+08:00

我没亲眼看过，偶尔听过。
但是我从来都不知道，她爱他可以爱得那么大胆，那么深。

某个夜里，我发掘到了一个秘密。
她爱一个人，深深地喜欢着他。
我不懂他知不知道。

原来，当文静的她在自己的文字中透露出毫不掩饰的感情。
我知道我输了。
我比她更没胆量。当我喜欢一个人的时候，我完全是以输家做起跑点。
她没告诉我，我生气。但同时间，我觉得我们是陌生人。

那么熟悉，却有一股陌生的空气塞住我们每个呼吸的机会。
我爱她，我疼惜她，但狮子座的我却无法表达。
我每次都以很不快的语气跟她说话，我以为她了解。
她也以为我从来都不认真看待她。
其实我都默默地知道她的事。
看她的部落格，从一个虚拟的角度去看她的世界。

我们之间的情谊都靠一堆在外太空的铁来维持。
卫星，似乎不能离开我们的世界。

我们不像别人般在半夜谈心，一起分享关于男孩的故事、一起玩化妆的游戏。

其实很少。

她不愿意谈。我选择沉默对让。
我以为这样就没事。
原来事实上，我们早已成了一种淡淡的关系。

我害怕，当我们彼此都离开这个世界的时候，依然那么的陌生。

粉红色的苏格兰格子我看电影听陈奕迅唱歌

2009-07-04T15:55:00.004+08:00

昨天去看陈奕迅。

前天去看电影Transformer 2。

星期二很粉红色，很多人都很Pink。

今天是苏格兰格子，你不会想要知道我到底看了多少个穿格子的女生。

说起陈奕迅，他live唱歌很好听。最不满足就是他才唱三首歌。
我买了CD却留在家，没带来。
没得让他签名。噢~overall，他唱现场live band真的不是盖的，很有feel。
看到My astro 至尊流行榜在现场拍摄，还给我看到颜莞倩呢。

Transformer 2 很厉害，2个小时半不是开玩笑的，音响效果很爽。
看机械人战斗，你不会想要自己的机械人有一天能变成那样。
动不动，把你家给烧了。

迟些日子要开始部署小说。人物大概拟定了几个。

今天剪头发，老板娘说我头皮敏感，介绍我做treatment。老板娘，我穷呀。

星期一考试，我忘了怎么读书呢。

灿烂千阳The Thousand Splendid Suns-观后感

2009-06-19T19:19:00.003+08:00

很创纪录地在两天里面看完一本翻译文学-[灿烂千阳]。

老娘的英文不好，只好看华语版本。

看完有点不知道怎么样形容的感觉。

玛利安是个[哈拉密]，意思是私生女。她15岁嫁给一个40几的男人。

一直不能为他产子而招来他的毒打。渐渐的，她慢慢接受宿命。

另一边，莱拉是个14岁的女孩。哥哥们在圣战中殉职，爸爸带着崩溃的妈妈准备离开阿富汗到巴基斯坦。不料，家园被炮弹打中，爸妈死了，留下她一个。那么巧，她被玛利安的丈夫救起，后来被迫嫁给她。那时候，他已经接近60岁，她才14岁。玛利安看到莱拉，正如自己的以前。后来两个人在困境中互相扶助，逃离那个家。

我很佩服Khaled Hosseini，他能够将当时战争的一切都描述得极致。

书本描述的一切都很真实，一边看也一边想象。

我觉得我很幸福，比起莱拉和玛利安，我实在不能够抱怨什么。

各位如果有时间，就看看吧。

送行者：礼仪师的乐章(Departure)-观后感

2009-06-14T16:53:00.004+08:00

刚刚看了一部鼻酸的电影。那一堆日本字念Okuribito。

之前在奥斯卡金像奖赢了最佳外语片的-送行者：礼仪师的乐章(Departure)

还没看之前以为跟丧事和棺材有联系的电影，不会好看到哪里去。

我现在明白，它得到最佳外语片，是实至名归。在日本，入殓的步骤是非常庄重和严肃。

小林大悟是一名大提琴家，他在管弦乐团解散后，卖了大提琴，和妻子回到山形县。

他在报纸上看见[NK代理]登的招聘广告，广告上以[帮助旅游代理]招聘，他以为是一间旅游代理。

殊不知，那是一家专门帮人家处理丧事，做入殓的工作。

电影里牵着复杂的情绪：大悟身边的人不能接受他身为入殓师的身份、他和爸爸陌生的父子情、

身为他的妻子却试入殓师为[肮脏的工作]。

配着大提琴的奏曲，这部电影让眼浅的人泪眶满盈。电影里偶尔有一点的幽默气氛，小林大悟的第一天工作竟是为拍摄[入殓指南]当模特儿。他在戏里的最后一幕，是他为30年没见的爸爸做入殓的工作。

这部戏真的值得去看，不知道马来西亚有没有上映。不过看报纸说有个星期是日本电影节，GSC有特别上映这部戏。

平常心

2009-06-10T22:35:00.003+08:00

今天，我考完试。
心情还好。

今天，大家的心情还好。

我觉得真的要好好为自己的未来策划。

看了一场电影，17 Again。
还不错，三颗星。

我的17岁没啥特别，根本不会想要回去那一年。

那一年，甜酸苦辣什么都有。

埋头读书考试拼成绩，没有所谓的美丽的回忆。

也许各国风情不一样，17岁的感觉，对我真的没什么大不了。

活了18年，就来步入第19个年头，要好好珍惜生活，免得以后想要回到过去。

钢牙第445天

2009-05-23T12:38:00.004+08:00

现在才来写有点迟。
我戴牙套戴了一年多两个月。

我觉得毕业后才戴太迟了。
明年上大学我总不能还带着排铁牙过人生吧。

没桃花就算了，连朋友都会交不到的感觉。

我记得有个王八说我像一个人，我听了简直快哭死了。
我像Ugly Betty,像啊？
有牙套的一定像她的咩？

我真的很期待把牙套脱掉的那一天，我可以吃很多我一年多没碰过的东西。
刷牙不用多费时间；嘴唇生ulcer不会被铁钉到比较痛。

有人说戴牙套非常痛。
看你的牙龈紧不紧，不紧就不痛。
因为牙龈稍微松一点的话，牙齿可以容易移位，所以不会痛。

加上我戴眼镜，有时我看我自己都有点不堪。
所谓的自拍照我N久没拍过了，戴牙套我真的错过很多吃的。

戴牙套的女生都有很多外号：钢牙妹、铁牙怪兽，有眼镜的会被称呼为-四眼铁牙

有时候我真的很受不了，戴牙套真的带来很多不好看的一面吗？
你们没想过当我们脱了牙套后会有一口很好看的牙齿？

有人说过戴牙套的女生很可爱，他这么讲是因为他某任女友是戴牙套的。
听起来有点肤浅。男生没有一个会真的喜欢上戴牙套的女生，对他们来说，
戴牙套=丑女

希望我脱牙套的那天会有新的开始。

胜利的败犬

2009-05-15T19:00:00.003+08:00

之前老娘我在看某台湾节目时看见聊关于‘败犬’这件事。

我没跟风，刚开始不懂败犬是啥米，看得雾煞煞。

败犬-特征：年龄三十以上的未婚女性
事业算有成，爱情方面却不得意
一直觉得单身很不错

节目里有心理测验，测一测成为败犬的几率高不高。
我居然高中90%啊！

我承认我事业心（尽管现在没有）会很重，觉得单身不错。
但是我芳龄还没到二十呀。
成为败犬的机会居然那么高？！

听了有点难过。

在爱情方面我算是输家，也玩不起爱情的复杂游戏。
所谓的恋爱经验，也成了记忆的茧。

曾经很大胆地约喜欢的对象，无奈却不成功。
朋友都说过，喜欢要趁着说出来，感觉走了，再也不会回来。

对呀。走了，再也不会回来。
时间和机会一过，后悔也只能成为代名词。

感觉我真的很大机会会成为败犬一族。天啊。

但是我依然是一个胜利的败犬，我活得很好咧。

妈咪！

2009-05-10T11:45:00.002+08:00

谁说天下的妈妈都是一样的？

我说不是。

我妈很特别。

以前她无法接受很多现在女生会做的事。
在我每天洗洗脑，说说话之后，她开始接受。

记得我中五那一年我要去朋友举办的Prom Night，
她不知道是啥米东西，我解释是类似舞会的。
她刚开始觉得这样很无谓，浪费钱。
我说人家外国人中学毕业都有的，只是这里不盛行。
我只有一次的17 岁，嗲嗲一下我又有得去了。

要念college的时候，本来是坐朋友的车去，有时候自己搭LRT回。
日子久了，接受不了。有点累，说想搬出去住，因为朋友在college附近租了一间房。
我可以share着住。
她刚开始很反对，非常。
我知道她是不舍得我，也会担心我在外面会学坏，因为她看不到我每天会做什么。

有一年她的生日，老爸进院，情况紧急。
没有人愿意在自己的生日在医院度过。
我能做的，只是在她身旁。

过了很久，我脾气也发得七七八八。
我也能搬出去住了。
我会担心没人分担家务，家里的弟妹也极为不懂事。
要半推半牵才肯做家务，我以为他们在我不在家的时候会懂事一点。

显然没有，她也做得半条命。
白天工作，晚上做家务。

今天是她第十九个母亲节，我还是说不出‘我爱你’。
不知道为什么，就是做不到。
我的基因有一半是遗传到爸爸的内向。

我只能将我的感受化为文字，写在这里。
即使她不会登陆观看，我也希望她知道我是多么的爱她。

天下的妈妈不是一样的，每个人的妈妈都是最特别的。

她永远都是那么的坚强。

我永远都那么爱她。

妈，母亲节快乐！谢谢你把我养大了~

自欺欺人

2009-04-30T17:49:00.002+08:00

我想现在回到家里的有些人们都忙着看信箱。

世界上最糟的事莫过于成绩考得很差还在你无法截拦邮差把成绩寄到你家。
[看不明白的话，慢慢读。]

有的人自首，说考得不好是一时大意。
有人被爸妈发觉后，臭骂了一顿，然后默默不出声。
我妈当着我的面撕开信封，问了为什么考不好，然后希望我考好些。
我反而感到意外，可说是有点措手不及。
[说到底，她想我念师训嘛]

我近来很意外的不是自己，勤劳得我自己都害怕。
害怕自己会变成考试的傀儡，和书本的木偶。
我从来都不是，不属于书本的类群。

以人类为生物界的精英来说，我们每天都得念书、上班，做一些普通生物不会接触的事。
你有看过狗在烦恼毕业以后要读什么吗？
你有看过长颈鹿因为在数自己的斑点而烦恼吗？

为什么人类就要读书，成为生物的精英呢？
如果大吉利是有一天被老虎吃了，读到的知识也随着老虎的胃酸而没了。
老虎也不会因为吃了你而突然会发明环保灯泡。

我不会怪任何人。
怪自己，没有装知识的脑子。

只有装着一大堆天马行空的幻想。

你们认识的我，

从来就不爱书。=)

Random Post

2009-04-06T22:46:00.004+08:00

trial exam for AS level already finished OFFICIALLY today.
after that, hvin lunch at BRJ which located at desa setapak.

post-exam mood always switched to LAZY.
today's paper was Biology paper 1.i finished 40 multiple choice questions in 25 minutes.
and checked the paper for 3 times..and slept until my paper was collected.

not feel very cheerful and excited of it.
this ended means another exam will soon stop by.
the real one. the damn real one.i was not ready for that yet.

i didn't study much for this exam.
yesterday i went to sepang for F1 duties.hot sun at first.
and heavy rain during GP2 asia series. then, hot sun again. and rain during the f1.
i stayed until 7pm and saw the night sight of sepang circuit for the very first time.
i wonder why they dun want to switched it to night race like s'pore.i bet it will be fantastic.
saw malaysia's artist Reshmonu came for the race.
i recognised him bcz of his trademark hairstyle.

do nothing much except countdown-ing the date to mvin back into my 2nd 'hse' at setapak.
2 weeks left.
and one of the hamsters died.may he/her rest in peace. [i even don't know it's gender]
It just left in the cage and nobody even care about it, death body was discovered by my friend when she trying to shake the cage. burried at where? rubbish room of the condo.

嗨！你好

2009-04-02T16:56:00.001+08:00

每一天的清晨，她都搭巴士到大学上课。
每一天的午餐时间，她都到食堂吃饭。
每一次，都会看到他。

红褐色的头发，单眼皮的双眼。
背着黑色的背包，脸上没有挂着一丝的笑容。

在他的朋友群里，他不算是特出的。

有一天在巴士上，她让他先下车。那一天是美丽的星期二。
[你先吧。]
他不回话，嘴角也只是微微上扬。那不算是一个笑容吧？
他走在她的前面，180 的高度。

他很勤劳，常常在饭后拿起作业就埋头。
她却在远远的一旁看着。害怕被发现却又不时地往他的方向瞄。

她爱慕虚荣，喜欢美丽的事物，喜欢帅哥。

这次，她觉得他的认真就是世界上最美的事。

然而有一天，他居然笑了。笑起来有点憨，但是却有种莫名的吸引力。

她决定开启第一步，向他问好，说起第一句话。

[嗨。]

[你好。]他回答。

友谊的开始，不分是他还是她走出第一步，而是最重要的，如何学会踏出那一步。

她!就是她！

2009-03-04T20:54:00.005+08:00

这是一个关于她的故事。

如果说世界末日你要我选择一个人渡过剩下的日子，那绝对是她。
如果只能带一个东西/一个人去荒岛，那绝对是她。
百分百，无疑。
别误会，我不搞蕾丝边。

她从来不会在朋友面前流露出难过得样子。
她再怎么难过，也只是笑一笑就过了。
我还没见过她哭呢。

她有个很史无前例的小名：Piang
小名的由来就很长，我不解释。
顶着一头微卷的头发，看了都让我想帮她烫直。
我喜欢她肉肉的手臂，很好躺。可是她比起以前瘦了一点。
我喜欢她那颗发育不良的虎牙，小的可怜。因为这样让她笑起来更加可爱。

她直率。
她诚实。
她讲义气。
她不会拒绝帮忙。
她是会扶老太太过马路的那种女生。
她讲到做到，是一定做到。
她喜欢打电玩。
她勤劳，如果跟我相比。
她爱笑，毫不掩饰地笑。
她懂我。尤其是我的冷幽默。
她不喜欢人家写错她的马来文名。
她的字体我一世人都模仿不到。我自认我在模仿字体有很大的潜力。

我什么都不怕，只是怕她不跟我讲话。
只要她静下来我就开始问长问短。[什么事啊？][做么不讲话的？]

跟她住在外头的日子，每次她都扫地。
我都没扫。她说谁做都一样，反正都没关系。
我有点内疚。

陈丽萍，你的人生已经跟我的交叉在一起。逃不走了。（奸笑中…）
我们就这样做一辈子的朋友好不好？

P/S: 不可以说不。

一个人的故事

2009-02-27T22:43:00.002+08:00

窗外的太阳渐渐变得微弱，感觉特别寂寞。

手指一直反复在那几个琴键上游走，他思绪不定。

钢琴的左上方摆着一杯没有放糖的咖啡，他说这样苦苦的感觉很让人回味。隔壁摆了一杯焦糖玛奇朵。

*

[你不觉得很苦吗？]

[不会。]他喝着咖啡，看着窗外下了好久的雨。

[今天又不能出去玩了。每一次我们要出去都会下雨。]她默默地搅拌了特别多焦糖的玛奇朵。

[你有没有想过要把你那杯苦的跟我这杯掺啊？]她突发奇想。

[喝了会泻肚子吧？]他不以为意。

*

思绪还是在那几个琴键上，走不出迷宫。他为他们写的歌，写了好久，都写不出来。

*

[告诉你，我要写一首属于我们的歌。]

[真的吗？阿秋！好棒噢。]她听了都开心不已。

[小南，你会不会后悔跟我走？]他看着她变瘦的脸颊，觉得自己实在太不应该。

[不会。]她坚决地说。手指不安分的在桌上敲着。

窗外的雨还是没有停止的意思，时强时弱。

*

那首歌写了20个小节，却一直在涂改。他们的故事永远都只有一个版本。

[阿秋！生日快乐噢！今天也是我们的1周年纪念。]她捧着一个很小的cupcake，上面插着一根蜡烛。

[对不起，没有一个像样的蛋糕。]她默默地说。

[没关系。]

离开了家里的第225 天，他们庆祝第一周年。

[你想家吗？]他问。

她静静地点点头，可是却不看正视他。

[你会生气我想家吗？]

[不会。因为我也很想。]

他开始想，会不会是自己当初的执著，害了她呢？作为一个自由人，没有固定的工作，偶尔写写稿子和歌。得到的钱都不多，一把钱养两口。

*

窗外的夜空，没有星星。晚上的城市，繁华的霓虹灯，显得自己很不堪。

砰！咖啡打翻了，弄湿了他的手稿，和他们的照片。

[阿秋啊。你的歌什么时候才呕出来啊？说过两个月嘛，你这样我很难做的。那么大的机会送给你，要珍惜！]

[陈董，我尽力啊。你要知道写歌不是一朝一夕的事。]

[多两个礼拜！没有就没有了。]又是催歌的电话，他已经感到疲累。

[怎么啦？又催歌啊？]小南擦着桌子。

[对。别理他。]

[不行这样，我们快没钱了。对噢，我明天会到面包店工作，帮补一下。]她突然严肃的语气让他有点招架不住。看着她越来越瘦的样子，他自责。

看着弄脏的照片，他的眼泪也渗出来了。

[阿秋，我好高兴！今天第一天上班，我很厚脸皮的跟老板预支薪水。我买了一个超级大粒的蛋糕给你，上次一个小小的cupcake太没意思了。]

[不用啦。钱就留着嘛。不说了，我在写着歌。等你回来，拜。]

[加油噢!写好好听的歌！]手机另一头传来精神百倍的声音。

那一晚，挂满星星的天空，没有下雨。

凌晨2点，他埋头在写歌，完全忘了她还没回家。

叮咚！门一开，是隔壁老伯。

[什么事？]

[快点下楼！你女朋友出车祸了！]

门也没关，他飞快地跑下楼。

看着摊在马路的一把摔烂了的蛋糕，远处熟悉的身影，被一群人围绕着。

他踏着沉重的脚步，慢慢都向前。

他希望老伯是看错人。

他希望那个躺在地上的女孩不是她。

他希望他现在看到的所有都是梦，快点醒过来。

[她没事吧？]路人指指点点。

他拨开路人的肩膀，她的脸淌着血。

[救护车呢？！救护车！你们都没叫吗？他妈的！你们是看热闹啊？！]他突然激动。

[叫了！他们说大道塞车。正赶着。]

等着，她渐渐发白，气息渐渐微弱。

她说过，等她老了要很开心的在他怀里死去。现在，未来来得有点快。

他抹干净弄脏的照片。

唯一的合照。

[阿秋啊，如果以后我比你先走，你要继续活着！]

[呸，年纪轻轻的说什么死不死的。韩剧看太多了吧你。]

[答应我噢。]

他们在一起的第230天，她走了。

一首写不完的歌，一个人的故事，两个恋人，一杯咖啡，两个味道。

(最近无聊乱写。请原谅我突如其来的莫名灵感。）

what about her? She is today's star.

2009-02-19T16:00:00.006+08:00

Someone's birthday today.
happy 19th birthday.

About her..hrrrmm..
she is just so unique.
unlike other girls, she is sporting in every ways.

the way she talks, she jokes,she laugh.
She will never hide the truth of herself.

we bought her a slice of cake from secret recipie,
3 donuts from big apple.
and one fake bread from breadou.(and it doesnt look fake at all.)

Benjamin drawn a 'potrait' of hers!

she and her birthday present. the bread, the pink shirt,and the adidas shirt dat she wear on her neck. and the necklace from qing yu. the guy in black shirt is our gang's actor-lim dick. he can act watever you wan him to act.haha

she put the fake bread in front of her chest.bla.

Happy birthday again!

words

2009-02-15T22:51:00.003+08:00

My friend asked me why i managing two blogs at the same time.
Well, i m a superwoman dude!

haha.Just kidding.

if you guys noticed,i costumize my blogspot from template to fonts.

now language is changing. i m inject new things to here.
so you'al can see chinese and english being used at the same time.
(i did post one entry using english rite?[if u all ever noticed])

is tired to think about what to write at here and MySpace.
i using english at MySpace cz my eyes were tired. The screen is blinking while i use chinese.

so, what else i can talk?

So wish to go for movies. The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.

The movie Benjamin is way to good from the Benjamin that i knew.
and way handsome-ier.[no offence=)]

ok. gotta go.

Valentine's Day

2009-02-13T16:57:00.003+08:00

每一年的2月14,都是飘着粉红色的季节。

天空是粉红的，每个人散发的正气是粉色的。

虽然我没有庆祝情人节，但是也不会感受不到恋爱的氛围。

情人节对每个人的定义不一样。

有的人伤心，有的人快乐。

分手后的第一个情人节，难免是灰色的。

庆祝甜蜜的第一个情人节，粉色的感觉少不了。

度过一个人的情人节，想念远方的他/她，那种莫名的孤独感，是透明的。

一个人在街道，看见甜蜜的情侣。

心里的感觉总是不好过。

单身万岁再也不是遮掩的借口。

情人节从来都不在我的字典里，我没庆祝过，也不知道情人节该往哪里去。

在家看电视也不错吧。看一看浪漫的爱情电影，也许也会感受到一丁点的幸福。

情人节快乐~

被遗忘的梦想

2009-02-02T12:11:00.008+08:00

刚刚整理了external hardisk里面的废物。

给我发现了一张我完全忘记了的照片和原来当天真的有这回事啊！

整个就是给它大吓倒啊。

其实也没什么，只是挖洞和埋东西然后不知道N年后才挖出来的行动让我想起九把刀新书[后· 青春期的诗]里面的情节啊。

那天是小学聚会。

那罐应该是装着我们的愿望和梦想。

二十几个人都在大洞旁看着这罐东西埋下去。

不过我们不搞封印这回事。

不知道说了多久以后再回来打开。也不知道大家记不记得。（可能只有我一个人忘了）

可能等到哪天化成灰才有人想起当初这间学校的脚底下有我们的梦想。

可能几百多年后学校已经不是学校，泥土里躺着的罐子也有可能变成了化石。

可能校长要扩建校舍……到时候给神手一掏，就整个完了啊。

校长啊，不要再建校舍了啊。拜托拜托~

实现了吗？我还真的忘了我写过什么。

才2年咧。我瓜子般大小的脑袋就真的给它忘记了啊。

那个罐子好像是新年装饼干的那种，红色盖子的。

可是那个洞还真大啊~~~装个人下去都行啊。

厚~搞得我有点期待把它挖出来的那天啊。看我到底写了什么。

新年新景象

2009-01-28T00:53:00.005+08:00

话说回来。这里真的很久没有生气。

死城啊。

过年都离不开到处拜年，看妈妈把一袋水果送给人家，人家又退回来还附送几粒柑，
然后那个袋子又传到下一家。

话说过年都是小孩子很开心的日子。红包红包红包红包红包~

我虽然不是小孩子，但是红包……有谁会嫌啊？那个人肯定没长脑子。

今年新年我看到一大堆小孩子，周岁未满至幼稚园都有。然后全部都好可爱。
可爱极了。

最近九把刀出了新书，还蛮想买来看。-（这些年，二哥哥很想你）
不知道马来西亚上了没。还没我都想打电话去催。哈哈

其实我接触九把刀的作品都没多久，看了几本他的作品。
都是通过我朋友介绍他。

说真的，九把刀的书看了就会上瘾。翻开了就松不了手，直到最后一页。
文字写得很细腻，看了就明白。看了会有一番感受。
总之，他真的很厉害。

各位不懂谁是九把刀或者听过他却没看过他作品的人儿~

九把刀写的书都很赞！一定要看！

两年前·两年后

2009-01-10T10:25:00.000+08:00

常常说要重新开始。

每一次，都不见得生活多了什么改变。

两年前，我以为我学会坚强，

以为学会流泪就要远离人群，

以为学会心碎了要怎么掩饰才不被发现。

那些所谓的以为，其实就只是单纯的以为。

我……什么都学不会。

以为不管再怎么难过，相信大雨过后都是晴天。

之后，

会不会向前？

也有人选择原地不动。

两年后，

我终于明白坚强是装不出来，

眼泪不可以强忍，

心碎的感觉没办法真正掩饰。

说谎，不是骗人的行为，而是对自己不诚实。

每呼吸一次，就好像重新温习心痛的滋味。

在感情的世界里，不是自己玩输了这场复杂的游戏，

而是一点也玩不起。